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its been forever & a day.
time to update.
i am going to oklahoma friday. insane. to see the love of my life who i havent seen in 4 years. 4 years i have not been able to touch him, see him. all i`ve had is photographs, IM's and phone calls. and now i finally get to fall asleep in his arms, everynight. seems surreal in a way. its still not setting in im going. but i will make this visit the best of my ability. i love this boy, a little too much, a little too late.
question on my mind lately. why do girls feel the need to go after their friends ex's or even better boyfriends? if you know someone has a boyfriend,LAY OFF! simple as that. no questions asked, dont touch them. as with the ex part, i dont care if they broke up 4 years ago or 2 days ago, stay the hell away from someone else's ex. its not cool no matter how you look at it. by doing it, its saying i wana cause a problem, and for someone who is that sick, shame on you. i despise girls who look for drama. nothing better to do with your life? yah it was "cool" to start problems in 8th grade when there was no worries but reality check sweetie, there is consequences now, BIG ONES!
i hate how people change. how people can become so cruel and evil. granted its life and it happens to everyone but some people can be so bitter. its so amazing how friends you once had all through highschool, even from elementary up, you no longer have. i feel in a way its like your forced to be friends with them. for some people they all go the same school, which forces them to constantly be around these people, making you in a way, have to be nice to them. college hits, you all go off to your seperate schools and everything changes. people stay in touch who really want to, not because they are forced to face them everyday.
there is a point in life when you just stop trying. maybe not stop but slowly move on. its sad how some people can get you so wrapped up, so convinced you can change them, when in reality all your doing is making it worse. letting them win...
on a happy note,i truely love the group of friends i have right now. maybe at times there is a lil drama, but what group of friends doesnt. we are all there for eachother, have eachothers backs. so many good times this summer, from painting erins basement, to the cape, to just late night chats or drives around the block. & cant forget the crazy nights with the boys, fire nights, swims in the pool, parties or even camera stealing accusations. lol. loveeee you guys & this summmer :]
its amazing how i didnt wana come home from school, i wanted to stay there and keep having fun. but now i`ve had so much fun i dont wana go back to school. i love being home, took a serious long time to figure out if i even wanted to go back to the burg. i`ll try it out for this semester, we will see. even the tinniest ounce of drama starts i`ll really think about if its worth it to stay. Screw the lil kid shit, get the hell over it & leave me ALoneeee!
k thats the end of my rant. bye !!
time to update.
i am going to oklahoma friday. insane. to see the love of my life who i havent seen in 4 years. 4 years i have not been able to touch him, see him. all i`ve had is photographs, IM's and phone calls. and now i finally get to fall asleep in his arms, everynight. seems surreal in a way. its still not setting in im going. but i will make this visit the best of my ability. i love this boy, a little too much, a little too late.
question on my mind lately. why do girls feel the need to go after their friends ex's or even better boyfriends? if you know someone has a boyfriend,LAY OFF! simple as that. no questions asked, dont touch them. as with the ex part, i dont care if they broke up 4 years ago or 2 days ago, stay the hell away from someone else's ex. its not cool no matter how you look at it. by doing it, its saying i wana cause a problem, and for someone who is that sick, shame on you. i despise girls who look for drama. nothing better to do with your life? yah it was "cool" to start problems in 8th grade when there was no worries but reality check sweetie, there is consequences now, BIG ONES!
i hate how people change. how people can become so cruel and evil. granted its life and it happens to everyone but some people can be so bitter. its so amazing how friends you once had all through highschool, even from elementary up, you no longer have. i feel in a way its like your forced to be friends with them. for some people they all go the same school, which forces them to constantly be around these people, making you in a way, have to be nice to them. college hits, you all go off to your seperate schools and everything changes. people stay in touch who really want to, not because they are forced to face them everyday.
there is a point in life when you just stop trying. maybe not stop but slowly move on. its sad how some people can get you so wrapped up, so convinced you can change them, when in reality all your doing is making it worse. letting them win...
on a happy note,i truely love the group of friends i have right now. maybe at times there is a lil drama, but what group of friends doesnt. we are all there for eachother, have eachothers backs. so many good times this summer, from painting erins basement, to the cape, to just late night chats or drives around the block. & cant forget the crazy nights with the boys, fire nights, swims in the pool, parties or even camera stealing accusations. lol. loveeee you guys & this summmer :]
its amazing how i didnt wana come home from school, i wanted to stay there and keep having fun. but now i`ve had so much fun i dont wana go back to school. i love being home, took a serious long time to figure out if i even wanted to go back to the burg. i`ll try it out for this semester, we will see. even the tinniest ounce of drama starts i`ll really think about if its worth it to stay. Screw the lil kid shit, get the hell over it & leave me ALoneeee!
k thats the end of my rant. bye !!