(no subject)
my life is full of high and lows.
never inbetweens. why is that??
i just want stuff to work out for me, not for anyone else but ME.
ive been pimpin it lately. being a total asshole too. like hookin up with them and then never speaking to them after it & acting like it never happened. watever, i dont want feelings for anyone.
then theres him. i like him ALOT. outta the blue we just started getting really serious. sleepovers constantly, texts and IMs all day long. and now he cant handle it. kinda dangles me on a lil string like im a god damn puppet. thats ending soon. we arent speaking this weekend... the weekend of his birthday.. because he wants some space. so i`ll give him his fukin space, here yah go pal.
i want more than anything to be cool with a certain someone again. god i miss him so much. it hurts to know if im having a bad day and just need someone to cheer me up i cant call him. when he tried to make things cool i had to, for my own self, tell him it wasnt guna happen. i hope by next year he will mature and maybe, hopefully things can be cool again.
arizona is soon. a month from tues.... o boy. he broke his shoulder or something so it will prob be a shitty time there. but atleast i get to go to his prom & graduation. i miss that boy alot, he was my world and still is. its crazy how times change but still stay the same...
blaaa this entry sucked. and life sucks now. haha
3 weeeks left of school. yah!
never inbetweens. why is that??
i just want stuff to work out for me, not for anyone else but ME.
ive been pimpin it lately. being a total asshole too. like hookin up with them and then never speaking to them after it & acting like it never happened. watever, i dont want feelings for anyone.
then theres him. i like him ALOT. outta the blue we just started getting really serious. sleepovers constantly, texts and IMs all day long. and now he cant handle it. kinda dangles me on a lil string like im a god damn puppet. thats ending soon. we arent speaking this weekend... the weekend of his birthday.. because he wants some space. so i`ll give him his fukin space, here yah go pal.
i want more than anything to be cool with a certain someone again. god i miss him so much. it hurts to know if im having a bad day and just need someone to cheer me up i cant call him. when he tried to make things cool i had to, for my own self, tell him it wasnt guna happen. i hope by next year he will mature and maybe, hopefully things can be cool again.
arizona is soon. a month from tues.... o boy. he broke his shoulder or something so it will prob be a shitty time there. but atleast i get to go to his prom & graduation. i miss that boy alot, he was my world and still is. its crazy how times change but still stay the same...
blaaa this entry sucked. and life sucks now. haha
3 weeeks left of school. yah!