summer's here. is this good? or no?
i woke up this morning, alone in a house, miles away from anyone i care about. and i realized, while sitting there in silence like always, that THIS might just be how my summer will go. i might wake up everday, alone, after going to sleep, alone, just to go to work..and do it all again. fuck this place.
i finished school yesterday, quite proud of the way i finished..so i took the day off work. saw matt and the whole kru..it was a nice night.
and it dawned on me this morning that i wont see matt to say goodbye. hes leaving in an hour, and im in phoenix. working. basicly doing nothing.
on my way to matts house after school yesterday..i did something stupid.
i called jim again. lets just say that didnt go well...
after his 2 mishaps in one week with the law, he seems to be in a pretty pesimistic state of mine. and that means, he breaks my heart again.
i was told to forget about him. i was told never to call again.
i guess he fell out of love with me. thats a nice feeling. but..at least i know that yesterday would be the last time he breaks my heart.
my heart hurts.
im feeling very alone in this town. i see my dad, but thats about it. and its nice to see him, but....i wish the bitch he married didnt ruin all of our lives.
its quiet in the house that me and him live in. i have no music...and no money to buy a cd player. i'll get no new nice clothes, or other things that i may want or need. there just isnt enough money. and not to mention, nothings comfortable here.
nothing.
whatever. im done bitching..nothings going to change, so i dont know why i even bother.
i finished school yesterday, quite proud of the way i finished..so i took the day off work. saw matt and the whole kru..it was a nice night.
and it dawned on me this morning that i wont see matt to say goodbye. hes leaving in an hour, and im in phoenix. working. basicly doing nothing.
on my way to matts house after school yesterday..i did something stupid.
i called jim again. lets just say that didnt go well...
after his 2 mishaps in one week with the law, he seems to be in a pretty pesimistic state of mine. and that means, he breaks my heart again.
i was told to forget about him. i was told never to call again.
i guess he fell out of love with me. thats a nice feeling. but..at least i know that yesterday would be the last time he breaks my heart.
my heart hurts.
im feeling very alone in this town. i see my dad, but thats about it. and its nice to see him, but....i wish the bitch he married didnt ruin all of our lives.
its quiet in the house that me and him live in. i have no music...and no money to buy a cd player. i'll get no new nice clothes, or other things that i may want or need. there just isnt enough money. and not to mention, nothings comfortable here.
nothing.
whatever. im done bitching..nothings going to change, so i dont know why i even bother.