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Ok, gd summer feeling gone. maybe cos the happy summer weather is gone or maybe cos 4 day weekend is over and life is sucky again wot with the lack of plans. i duno wot it is. maybe just a teenageric change of mood but a week ago i looked at evrythng differently, in a gd way. i looked forward to thngs more. Now its like i see evrythng badly. i look at an event coming up and instead of sayin "tht might be fun" i imagin all the ways it could go wrong and be boring. I hate this feeling. Its like im stuck. i cant just take a break. I want to just take sum time out from life and give my mind a rest but i cant. i have to carry on going, and sort things out, and overcome all my problems. and, i hate the fact tht im thnking like this. i want to look forward to thngs, but at the moment, i cant see enjoyment in stuff. i just cant face people at the moment. i want to be social but its hard to be who i want to be at the moment. yet i dont want to turn my bak on stuff in case i miss sumthng. if tht makes sence?
Fuck, so many thought and yet however much i thnk about them, it doesnt seem to get any better.
Fuck, so many thought and yet however much i thnk about them, it doesnt seem to get any better.