will it ever get better?

[foolforlife]

i've decided the reason i hardly ever write in this anymore is not because i don't have anything to say, it's because i don't know what i feel and i can't express something i haven't discovered yet. i know generally we use this to keep in touch and it's nice to look every once in a while and feel like i'm keeping up with people i care about but at the same time, i know nothing i do is interesting enough to write about or is too interesting and i can't write about it. welcome to my life. so i don't write. i will say, however, that i'm so relieved the school year is over and i'm two semesters ahead of where i was a year ago. i don't want school to end, i don't want to be here anymore, i don't want to go home, i do want to go home, i miss home, i'll miss school, the whole endless cycle. so i dunno where i am right now (in any facet of my life) and i'm just ready to not have responsibilities for a few days. that will be nice. but still the "stress" lingers...

i have too many song lyrics to insert here, but we all know how we feel about those. so ... just assume i did and you're all mad. except emily. thanks em.

i miss you guys and i'll be home friday morning so we can all drink wine and burn books and be merry and i'm so excited. :)