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well, i've been working at the mental hospital for a few months now. everything is working out well. i like my job (crazy people are hilarious).
i live at the dorms on the hospital grounds. it's cheap and close to work, but i never see anyone. i've got a few friends in nipomo and i hang out with them on the weekends, but even with them i'm kinda locked into a routine. we have a few beers, watch some movies, i watch them get stoned, maybe a party every now and then... not enough.
all my life i've been emotionally self-contained, self-sufficient. every so often a pretty girl would come along and like me for some reason, and sometimes i would like her too. and that was fun. but i never really needed anyone emotionally.
i've been feeling a little empty lately though. for the first time that i can remember, i need someone to be with. not just sex. that's easy enough to come by. and not necessarily someone to spend the rest of my life with. just something inbetween.
i guess this is what lonely feels like.
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i live at the dorms on the hospital grounds. it's cheap and close to work, but i never see anyone. i've got a few friends in nipomo and i hang out with them on the weekends, but even with them i'm kinda locked into a routine. we have a few beers, watch some movies, i watch them get stoned, maybe a party every now and then... not enough.
all my life i've been emotionally self-contained, self-sufficient. every so often a pretty girl would come along and like me for some reason, and sometimes i would like her too. and that was fun. but i never really needed anyone emotionally.
i've been feeling a little empty lately though. for the first time that i can remember, i need someone to be with. not just sex. that's easy enough to come by. and not necessarily someone to spend the rest of my life with. just something inbetween.
i guess this is what lonely feels like.
t