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Im going to have my ranting moment. I just came back from Roswell and seeing Dead Man's Chest. YEs it was very good. Now, ranting... To me it seems that my dad is worrying about pleasing my step brother more than me. Today we went to Wal-mart. I see this iPod case and i know i need one. I look at them and, at the cheapest, there is on at 20 dollars. that most of my money so i didnt want to spend it. i show my dad and he says just to wait. I understood and just kept it in my mind hopeing to get it one day. We go to the sports section and they decide to buy a basketball setup for him. wtf? the ones that attach to your wall outside. not only am i pissed off they got it, i had to carry it around Wal-mart. They buy this thing while he will be here for another two weeks. God forbid the kid cant waste his time in the pool, or his baseball setup. GAHH! and this kid argues with me about everything, mocks me, and does not leave me alone sometimes. And of course i have no control over him so i cant do anything. He looks at my stuff. in fact im surprised hes not bugging me right now. buh. And Tracie tries to pry into my life. on the first day i was in Artesia, she preached to me about not calling my dad. She also tells me i should tell my mother i love her. I dont know why thats her business. My family is nothing like hers. and started asking me what my masterplan for life it. Why the hell does she need to know? Is she wondering if shes going to be part of it. Well she can quit flattering herself because shes not. For God's sake i heard them having sex. it was not a good feeling... at all.
I miss all my friends. I hope i can go to that movie with Missy, Hillary, and Kim because that what i really want to do when i get home. im really looking forward to it. My family too. see if anything new has happened. I miss South Carolina. Sure, Ruidoso was very pretty, but i like South Carolina. They have McDonalds. Its not a barren wasteland.
And i think there is no hope for me when it comes to girls. I dont know what it is about me. Am i that unattractive? whats wrong with me? i imagine myself being single for a good while. And i think, what exactly is wrong with that? it might be better to be lonely for awhile. What is the point in relationships? I mean if a girl comes along and i fall for her easily, we'll see.
Well there was my ranting moment. Dont Judge me. Oh and i got the Box Car Racer CD, makes me damn happy.
I miss all my friends. I hope i can go to that movie with Missy, Hillary, and Kim because that what i really want to do when i get home. im really looking forward to it. My family too. see if anything new has happened. I miss South Carolina. Sure, Ruidoso was very pretty, but i like South Carolina. They have McDonalds. Its not a barren wasteland.
And i think there is no hope for me when it comes to girls. I dont know what it is about me. Am i that unattractive? whats wrong with me? i imagine myself being single for a good while. And i think, what exactly is wrong with that? it might be better to be lonely for awhile. What is the point in relationships? I mean if a girl comes along and i fall for her easily, we'll see.
Well there was my ranting moment. Dont Judge me. Oh and i got the Box Car Racer CD, makes me damn happy.