Sigh...
I've been having a really hard time feeling the holiday cheer lately.. Everything just seems like more hassle than it's worth these days.
My nifty new phone has had a bunch of hardware problems, so much so that I've taken it back to the store so many times that they won't swap it out for me anymore. I'm now waiting for a refurbished replacement to be mailed to me by Verizon. Well, actually it's been mailed, and was attempted to be delivered yesterday, but I wasn't home. I can't be home for it today because I need to be in the south bay today, so they'll miss me again, and I don't really want to sign the thing to have them leave it on my doorstep (not so much because of the fear of it going missing as the fact that the weather lately has been such that with my luck I'd come home to find a cardboard box full of soggy warranty-voided electronics waiting for me). I'm hoping I can get it tomorrow as that's the last attempt they'll make to deliver it...
Oh, and one of my DirecTV satellite inputs has decided to stop working for no apparent reason, so we're down to just one now, which means some of the stuff we've got scheduled to record probably isn't recording, and watching live TV is more of a pain now. I haven't had time to even start troubleshooting it, and probably won't for a while..
Let's see.. On the way home from work last Thursday I got into a car accident. Nothing major, just a (literal) fender-bender, but still annoying. Honestly, what the hell has gone wrong with everyone on the roads in the past month and a half? I'm having to plan for twice the commute time every day because every single day now there's at least two different accidents on just the 10 mile stretch of freeway I take to get home. And it's not just the freeways! The accident I got into was because some idiot blew straight through a red light into the lane I was changing into, and there have been at least 3 other incidents I can think of in the past month where I've narrowly avoided hitting people who were doing something stupid. That's more than the entire rest of the year! I really miss working in SF, if nothing else just because I wish I was still taking BART into work and didn't have to deal with these morons every day just to get to work and back..
The irony is that it was because I-680 was bumper-to-bumper from Dublin all the way up to Walnut Creek that I decided I would get off and use surface streets because it'd be faster.. Just as I'm getting off the offramp is when the guy blows through the red light into my lane, and bingo, I get to spend an hour and a half sitting in a parking lot until the whole mess is resolved (and then still have to drive home). If I'd stayed on the freeway, I would have been home an hour earlier, and I wouldn't have to go through all the hassle of the insurance companies and getting repairs done and everything. Who knows how long it's going to take to get stuff done, considering the insurance companies won't do anything until they see the police report (despite the fact that I even have witness info, etc, for them), and the report probably won't actually get into the system for a month or two given how backed up the police always are, and all this is on top of the rest of the holiday crap going on..
Speaking of which, I still haven't gotten any Xmas shopping done. Like, not any. And I'm going to be on-call from 7am-7pm this Saturday basically stuck at home, so I can't do it then, and on Sunday I've got two different parties scheduled on top of each other. I might be able to take a day off somewhere to do something next week, but considering that I'm already being forced to take some of my few vacation days because of a company shutdown week-after-next I really don't want to burn more of them than I have to. And I never did get any kind of an Xmas list put together, so I'm not expecting anybody to have any idea what to get me (I don't even really know what to get me), so don't worry if you don't have anything for me.. I'm not really expecting to get much this Xmas anyway. Seems only fair since I'm probably not going to manage to get much for other people either given how things are going..
And of course work's annoying.. I've got a long list of things that need to get done but somehow despite working on all of them every day I can never manage to actually cross any of them off.. And I've got three or four things all piling up that are going to need to be done OMGRIGHTNOW as soon as we come back from the shutdown week and are allowed to touch production stuff again (at least one of which I was going to be spending some of the "downtime" this month figuring out how we were actually going to make it work properly, and I haven't had any time to (because there's been more stuff breaking now, during what's supposed to be the quiet time, than ever before) so I still don't have a working implementation to put in place first-week-of-january)...
Oh, and on top of Buddha's thyroid issues, which we're still trying to get the medication right for, now there are signs of impending liver problems, and the lump on her neck has gotten bigger but nobody's quite sure what it is yet or whether it's a problem. I get to take her back in in a week for a biopsy and a bunch more expensive lab tests..
And I'm increasingly coming to the conclusion that I just shouldn't talk to other people. Every time I do I seem to get in trouble or get into some sort of hassle. Mostly due to my own stupidity or personality flaws, so it's not even like I can really blame anybody else for it. I think I just wasn't meant to be around people.
So anyway, I'm just getting really kinda tired and fed up with everything. I try not to be. I've been trying to have fun, or at least pretend to have fun, but more and more I'm just coming to the conclusion that I don't have the energy for any of it, especially Xmas. I just want to go somewhere quiet and sit in a corner and ignore everything for the next 6 weeks, but I can't do that either, because that will just make most of it worse.
Really, I guess, I just want to go home...
Sigh.
My nifty new phone has had a bunch of hardware problems, so much so that I've taken it back to the store so many times that they won't swap it out for me anymore. I'm now waiting for a refurbished replacement to be mailed to me by Verizon. Well, actually it's been mailed, and was attempted to be delivered yesterday, but I wasn't home. I can't be home for it today because I need to be in the south bay today, so they'll miss me again, and I don't really want to sign the thing to have them leave it on my doorstep (not so much because of the fear of it going missing as the fact that the weather lately has been such that with my luck I'd come home to find a cardboard box full of soggy warranty-voided electronics waiting for me). I'm hoping I can get it tomorrow as that's the last attempt they'll make to deliver it...
Oh, and one of my DirecTV satellite inputs has decided to stop working for no apparent reason, so we're down to just one now, which means some of the stuff we've got scheduled to record probably isn't recording, and watching live TV is more of a pain now. I haven't had time to even start troubleshooting it, and probably won't for a while..
Let's see.. On the way home from work last Thursday I got into a car accident. Nothing major, just a (literal) fender-bender, but still annoying. Honestly, what the hell has gone wrong with everyone on the roads in the past month and a half? I'm having to plan for twice the commute time every day because every single day now there's at least two different accidents on just the 10 mile stretch of freeway I take to get home. And it's not just the freeways! The accident I got into was because some idiot blew straight through a red light into the lane I was changing into, and there have been at least 3 other incidents I can think of in the past month where I've narrowly avoided hitting people who were doing something stupid. That's more than the entire rest of the year! I really miss working in SF, if nothing else just because I wish I was still taking BART into work and didn't have to deal with these morons every day just to get to work and back..
The irony is that it was because I-680 was bumper-to-bumper from Dublin all the way up to Walnut Creek that I decided I would get off and use surface streets because it'd be faster.. Just as I'm getting off the offramp is when the guy blows through the red light into my lane, and bingo, I get to spend an hour and a half sitting in a parking lot until the whole mess is resolved (and then still have to drive home). If I'd stayed on the freeway, I would have been home an hour earlier, and I wouldn't have to go through all the hassle of the insurance companies and getting repairs done and everything. Who knows how long it's going to take to get stuff done, considering the insurance companies won't do anything until they see the police report (despite the fact that I even have witness info, etc, for them), and the report probably won't actually get into the system for a month or two given how backed up the police always are, and all this is on top of the rest of the holiday crap going on..
Speaking of which, I still haven't gotten any Xmas shopping done. Like, not any. And I'm going to be on-call from 7am-7pm this Saturday basically stuck at home, so I can't do it then, and on Sunday I've got two different parties scheduled on top of each other. I might be able to take a day off somewhere to do something next week, but considering that I'm already being forced to take some of my few vacation days because of a company shutdown week-after-next I really don't want to burn more of them than I have to. And I never did get any kind of an Xmas list put together, so I'm not expecting anybody to have any idea what to get me (I don't even really know what to get me), so don't worry if you don't have anything for me.. I'm not really expecting to get much this Xmas anyway. Seems only fair since I'm probably not going to manage to get much for other people either given how things are going..
And of course work's annoying.. I've got a long list of things that need to get done but somehow despite working on all of them every day I can never manage to actually cross any of them off.. And I've got three or four things all piling up that are going to need to be done OMGRIGHTNOW as soon as we come back from the shutdown week and are allowed to touch production stuff again (at least one of which I was going to be spending some of the "downtime" this month figuring out how we were actually going to make it work properly, and I haven't had any time to (because there's been more stuff breaking now, during what's supposed to be the quiet time, than ever before) so I still don't have a working implementation to put in place first-week-of-january)...
Oh, and on top of Buddha's thyroid issues, which we're still trying to get the medication right for, now there are signs of impending liver problems, and the lump on her neck has gotten bigger but nobody's quite sure what it is yet or whether it's a problem. I get to take her back in in a week for a biopsy and a bunch more expensive lab tests..
And I'm increasingly coming to the conclusion that I just shouldn't talk to other people. Every time I do I seem to get in trouble or get into some sort of hassle. Mostly due to my own stupidity or personality flaws, so it's not even like I can really blame anybody else for it. I think I just wasn't meant to be around people.
So anyway, I'm just getting really kinda tired and fed up with everything. I try not to be. I've been trying to have fun, or at least pretend to have fun, but more and more I'm just coming to the conclusion that I don't have the energy for any of it, especially Xmas. I just want to go somewhere quiet and sit in a corner and ignore everything for the next 6 weeks, but I can't do that either, because that will just make most of it worse.
Really, I guess, I just want to go home...
Sigh.