sometimes i run
hmm things have grown progressively better over the last week or so. it seems like i spend a lot of time alone in my room just thinking. now would probably be one of those moments, but i think (i'm not really sure if there is one, =P) i have a law test in about 3 hours. then an accounting one this afternoon at 4:30. a lot of tests and all are hitting me about this time since midterm reports are due pretty soon, but it's not so bad. i guess we'll see how i feel after today though.
jumping around a bit, i don't spend nearly as much time on aol as i used to. i'll sign on and be busy doin something else and my friends like dat and them will message me and i never message back, so i'm losing some connection with the people at home in at least one respect. also, i just haven't felt like coming home yet this semester, so i haven't. i've got pretty great parents, granted they've still got their flaws and do mean things to each other sometimes. you start to realize what people mean to you once you've been away from them for a while. my attitude has been changing about myself and people in general lately. every day i come closer to accepting that i'll be a bachelor for the rest of my time here at tech, and at the same time i'm getting closer to really accepting that. just kinda looking at how i think when i'm out and about, i have a tendency to assess every female i come around as to whether or not i'd date her or whether or not i think she's pretty, etc. i guess it's not necessarily a bad thing to do, but i don't really want to anymore. i'd enjoy it all more if i wasn't worrying about impressing the ladies 24/7. there was one girl i was hanging out with a fairly good amount for a while, but things went sour and i just didn't talk to her for about a month. it was one of those unreciprocated love interest things --i guess there's just some people you'll never be able to be normal around. those are always the people you really want to have a normal relationship (whatever that is) with. in either case i think my decision was best for us both.
ah but minus the seemingly negative note on this upbeat post of mine, i still enjoy livin life down here. my classes are going a bit better. the whole waking up late for the calculus test thing put me behind, but it's nothing that can't be overcome. anyways, time for some studying.
seeya marsupials
jumping around a bit, i don't spend nearly as much time on aol as i used to. i'll sign on and be busy doin something else and my friends like dat and them will message me and i never message back, so i'm losing some connection with the people at home in at least one respect. also, i just haven't felt like coming home yet this semester, so i haven't. i've got pretty great parents, granted they've still got their flaws and do mean things to each other sometimes. you start to realize what people mean to you once you've been away from them for a while. my attitude has been changing about myself and people in general lately. every day i come closer to accepting that i'll be a bachelor for the rest of my time here at tech, and at the same time i'm getting closer to really accepting that. just kinda looking at how i think when i'm out and about, i have a tendency to assess every female i come around as to whether or not i'd date her or whether or not i think she's pretty, etc. i guess it's not necessarily a bad thing to do, but i don't really want to anymore. i'd enjoy it all more if i wasn't worrying about impressing the ladies 24/7. there was one girl i was hanging out with a fairly good amount for a while, but things went sour and i just didn't talk to her for about a month. it was one of those unreciprocated love interest things --i guess there's just some people you'll never be able to be normal around. those are always the people you really want to have a normal relationship (whatever that is) with. in either case i think my decision was best for us both.
ah but minus the seemingly negative note on this upbeat post of mine, i still enjoy livin life down here. my classes are going a bit better. the whole waking up late for the calculus test thing put me behind, but it's nothing that can't be overcome. anyways, time for some studying.
seeya marsupials