Wow, I just had this terrible urge to blog this~
Sometimes, being the youngest sucks. Since you get bossed around and put down so easily. Plus, the actions of your older siblings affect you because it limits your restrictions even further.
Even though I can't stand being in the same room as my older siblings (most of the time) and even if they drive me up the wall and totally boil my blood at times, there are those moments where they're affectionate without me knowing.
Throughout my childhood (and even now, actually), I've always been scared of my sister. I remember times when I was younger where I wasn't allowed to enter her room or even take one small step past the line where the doorway is. So, while people fuss in her room and such, I would just watch from the doorway and making sure my feet won't cross the line even for just an inch. [Man~ was I obedient or what?! Poor ina T_T] And literally, I would actually line my toes against the line. Haha ew, why am I talking about my toes!?! ANYWAY as I was saying, my sister and I don't talk much at all, except when it's spontaneous or appropriate. But I guess, we all grow up and things change.
Today, I kinda over-slept [as expected from me *bows*]. Then my Mum and my sister were talking about balldresses for me, and shops where we can look and etc. And they were just blabbing on about that and me. Then when I got up and my sister left for a while, my Mum came up to me, gave me a skirt and said : "Ate was asking if you can fit this" and so I tried it on. Then it was just a bit loose, but then POINT IS!!, she gave it to me. And at other times, ever-so-spontaneously, she just throws me these pieces of clothing and simply says "Psst, here it's yours." and I'd say thanks and run to the bathroom, excited to try it on.
As for my brother, I guess I've always been closer with him. I remember when we were young, we'd place his small toy cars on the bed's legs (you know? the posts keeping it up?) and start jumping on the bed to crush the cars. Haha. Also, we made a "meeting room" in his closet. It had a table (Cardboard box), and even a light (flashlight). We'd also play with Tamiya cars, Pokemon cards, Lego, and K-nex. (to think of it, I enjoyed playing with those better than dolls. omg what a boy) I remember one time, our parents bought us each a basketball, then I tried shooting mine in the hoop, but I was too small to shoot that high. So, he'd hoist me up on his shoulders, then I'd try to shoot it. Also, he gave me his PlayStation when he got a new one. [Yes, his PS1 HAHA. Technology wasn't great yet k?] To think of it, there's only one time where we were so angry with each other. I think I was about 6 or 7, and he was almost in his teens. Ironically, it was then that I realize that my brother cares for me. I remember him having so much anger in his eyes, and he already had his fist up, but then he couldn't hit me. It was just there in mid-air, but then he couldn't bring himself to hit me. So, as a 6/7 year old girl who's terribly angry, I couldn't handle it, so I slapped him. Hard. [HAHA~ my mum never lets us live this down]. He got even angrier I think he was even teary-eyed, but he just held his fist still, not daring to hit me. Wow, what a moment. *starry-eyed*
These days, we get along and then we don't. On good days, he's just like he was back then. On other days, he mocks, irritates, puts me down and gets pissed at me. But then, I've learnt to adjust to that since that's him. But one thing I like about my brother is that he's protective over me when I go to different places. When I'm all dressed up ready to go somewhere, he'd catch me and he'd be like "Where are you going? Who's gonna drop you of? Where's that? Who's gonna go with you?" Haha. I think he got that from my Mum. Then at times when I'm already gone before he's awake, my Mum would tell me that he would tell her "Mum, where's Ina?". I'd get irritated that he has to always know where I am, but I kinda understand now, why people tell me they'd want to have an older brother. I remember the day he got back from Australia. After greeting my mum, he went to my room. Then he started talking about Australia, what he did, etc. Then I think we talked until 2am, and I had school the next day. But then, it was worth the lack of sleep.
Overall, I'm pretty damn fortunate I have my older siblings looking out for me, even though I don't get along with them most times.
My sister is pretty much my idol, since she's always striving for high marks and she's doing great in what she does. I always feel comforted knowing that I have someone to go to for advice or if I have problems. I guess girls with older sisters would know this. Only downside of it is that they always overshadow you. Haha, but I've come into terms with that. It keeps me motivated that I'll beat her one day lol.
And with my brother, even though we get on each other's nerves sometimes, I know that he always has that brotherly concern for me. Though he acts all manly and cool [Srsly, what is up with boys and that facade!?!], he still has that soft side where he opens up to me. I vent to him about my Asian Drama crushes, and sometimes, he actually plays along XD. Even if we don't get along sometimes, I actually like that fact that we don't. I guess girls with older brothers would understand what I mean because it's so awesome knowing that there's someone to look out for you, and defend you when you're all beaten.
Aaah the life of the youngest. I'm just happy that I have no bratty sibling to sacrifice the internet, TV, etc. for :D. And I can get pretty spoilt too. Wahahaha~ k i'm out.
DAMN IT I WAS SUPPOSED TO DO MY BIO. DAMN BLOGGING WHAAAIIIII ~ D':
P.S. I just hope they'll never find this entry, or else I'll be humiliated T_T;; They'd either shout at me for posting some stuff about them from when they were young, or tease me that I would actually post something about them, expressing admiration, and love.
Hah, *hides*.