3rd times a charm

Nov 17, 2003 02:28

I can't believe my horrible luck. This is now the 3rd time i attempt to post my first journal. The first was of my error and deleted it by accident before posting it and the 2nd was lost when some @$$hole turned off all the power in my hall. If i find him, he will die. Now please god, allow me to finish and safely post this journal.
Alrighty, so let's begin with Mercer. There are so many things i want to talk about my new home. I love it here. I love the birds chirping in the morning, i love the squirrels running across the quad tempting me to try and hit, them those keniving bastards. I love my damn FYS class even though i'll prolly get a C in there. I literally love this place. It's ironic tho, i came here to play soccer, ended up quitting, and now i'm having the best time of my life. I get scared though. I'm afraid that the dream might come to an end. I'm afraid that somehow i might screw things up or i won't be able to find a way to pay for classes. I literally wake up at night in sweat, praying that i won't have to leave this school that i have grown to love with a passion.
It is kinda like a two-edged blade, on one end, i am at this awesome school with so many new friends but at the other, i am away from my friends that i care about so much. Even if i don't talk to half of those kids anymore, doesn't mean one bit, that i have forgotten about them. I didn't say that speech in my basement for nothing. A person as lazy as i am, doesn't do things for the heck of it. I have found a new brotherhood, not to replace the old bc that will never be replaced. Lambda Chi is one of the best things that has entered my life. This fraternity is so much more than i could have ever imagined. I never have held my head as high as i do now, it gives me a sense of courage, strength, and duty. I bleed Lambda Chi Alpha and nothing will ever take that away from me.
To all my ladies, I love yall. Livy, regardless of what people say and think, I have this bond with u that no one will ever be able to replace. U will always be in my heart. Bianca, my lil brazilian bomb. U have that spark, it is so rare to find. U r one of the most beautiful things these lucky eyes have ever come across. I only pray that god may keep a watchful eye on u as i had tried my hardest to do. Becareful baby, do go too overboard with ur crazy lifestyle, i don't wanna lose u, the world doesn't want to lose u. Even Jackie, wherever the hell u r, thank u for makin me the person that i am today. W/o all the games we played, who knows, i grew so much from the shy lil boy i was when i first met u. To the rest of my female friends, i love all y'all and i do miss each and every one of y'all
I just wanna make clear on a couple of things that have kinda been naggin at me. First of all, please cut down on the drama that has been circulating the whole Athens/Lville area. Grow up damnit, leave all that childish crap back in CHHS. All this drama bs is a waste of time. Life is too short to hold grudges or just walk around pissed off all the time. Another thing, please understand that drinking does not equal an instant ticket to hell. Be a responsible human being yet at the same time dont go judging others as if ur judge and jury, kick back and relax. Life is good, live it up.
Just wanted to make one final note. To all the people who r afraid of dancing bc they can't or whatnot. Who Cares. It is my new passion. I was so afraid of it in high school and now i can't get enough of it. Even more surprising, i'm actually pretty damn good at it as well.
On a quick note, I have finally found someone worth chasing. She is easily one of the prettiest girls at Mercer and she is cool as shit. I have been having a great time just meeting new girls and going to bars or clubs and just having fun with them but it is now interesting to find someone that i actually would love to just hang out and chill while not being intoxicated. We shall see what happens and whatever does, it must be all for the better i would presume. There i am done
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