I'm back
well spring break was awesome. i went to daytona for a few days and then to naples. College spring break, just madness, thats all that can be said. I also spent 120 dollars on gas so that was the only bad thing but it's just cash, doesn't make u happy, only makes u look good. I find the year getting closer and closer to finishing and i found myself thinking about a lot of things. How are things going to be again when i go home? Will we all revert back to how we were before college or will their be a division, we shall see. I also look back at time at Mercer and think all that has happened. Of course, i'm so thankful for my fraternity, i love all those guys. But on a deeper level i look at my relations with those that i spent a majority of my time. To the guys in my hall, if i could, i'd initiate all u guys into my fraternity, i feel like when im not with my greek fraternity then i am with my dorm fraternity. I look at my relations with females. Gosh, what a rollercoaster it has felt. From extreme highs to lows and then back up again. I've learned even more things from all the girls that i have spent time with at Mercer. I've learned that despite all the whining i do about girls not liking me or hurting me somehow, i place a lot of this upon myself. I've learned that i am desired and that people r attracted to me and like me or whatnot but i still manage somehow to be alone. It is my fault in the end. I want what i can't have. Good or bad, whatever type of girl it is, i desire what isn't exactly good for me. I don't believe any girl is out of my limit because not trying to sound cocky but i'm fun to be with. I just don't know, if things did work out with certain girls, how long would i go before i lose interest. I'm my worst enemy. Ahh i just need a break, either for God to allow me to be content with what i have or send someone to me who is content with me. I did it again, another mushy entry, sorry everyone i know i have no reason to be complaining about my life but i guess i've managed to find something not to be happy about.