valentines
so yet another valentine's day has gone by and i have to admit, this one has been the best by far. I look back at my previous valentine's days and i don't regret who i had spent them with. Even though that person and i havent seen each other or even have talked since that night before i left for mercer, i still find myself thinking what if things had worked out differently. What if things between me and jackie had worked out for once, would we still be together today, would i have had a relationship with livy? Would i have decided to go to a school as far as mecer? So many questions come up like this that i have recently begun asking myself " do all these things happen for a reason". I now look at my situation today. Last night, i got to spend valentine's with a person i have grown to greatly admire and care about. I found myself looking at her last night at El Azteca(yeah i know thats cheap but Carrabbas was on a 3 hour wait) finding it very hard to believe that i was eating dinner on valentine's with one of the most beautiful things i have ever put my eyes on. So many different possibilities and scenarios could have occured but i dont understand how i got so lucky to be placed in this one. I mean as early as a month ago i was talking about how much nice guys got crapped on bc some skank screwed me over. God works in so many mysterious ways.
situations like this reinforce my idea that everything happens for a reason. god places people in our lives for one reason or another. Sometimes people r put in our lives to teach us a lesson or see things from a different persepctive or to simply make us happy. I look back at all the painful things taht ahve occured in my life from rejection to disappointment and think it all happened for a reason. this rational may be an easy way out to painful scenarios but it brings me peace of mind.
I dont know if Carisa and i would be as close as we r had it not been for some of the painful times i had gone through. Getting to see her smile and hear her voice, there is nothing else i would trade that for. Regardless of what the future holds, i thank god for allowing days like last night to occur in my life bc my memories will never fade, especially in times of reflecting for they will always be a part of who i am.
situations like this reinforce my idea that everything happens for a reason. god places people in our lives for one reason or another. Sometimes people r put in our lives to teach us a lesson or see things from a different persepctive or to simply make us happy. I look back at all the painful things taht ahve occured in my life from rejection to disappointment and think it all happened for a reason. this rational may be an easy way out to painful scenarios but it brings me peace of mind.
I dont know if Carisa and i would be as close as we r had it not been for some of the painful times i had gone through. Getting to see her smile and hear her voice, there is nothing else i would trade that for. Regardless of what the future holds, i thank god for allowing days like last night to occur in my life bc my memories will never fade, especially in times of reflecting for they will always be a part of who i am.