transferring all system entries now!
Angst Part:
I realized that I only become deeply entrenched in a new fandom when I need to transfer real emotions off of something. My life has been pretty stable, so Naruto has stayed pretty much my fandom for the time despite it's being pretty much dead to me, as a lot of those emotions are now. The emotional transferal being that of Gaara at the time. He had a lot of the same problems that I had at the time (his father being a dick = my father decided to contact me after something like ten years, etc, etc) as well as being a manipulative fuck like that guy who will not be named that I was trying to stop caring about. You see the pattern here? This time it's I am trying to transfer my emotions off someone who is older than me, far more experience than I, indifferently active in his fate. The vassal for my retarded fangirl crush is this time Washington from RedvsBlue. Washington who has had Both are totally emotionally or whatever unavailable to me.
Someone else tell me I am not alone with my ability to do this? I can't figure out if its normal or not. I am just trying to redirect my emotions, allow myself to pine for something that I cannot have, because Washington is not real. I can obsess over him, in a obscure kinda fan way. Much easier to deal with nay?
Happy Part:
OMFG I WANT THE HILLBILLY, FRENCH LOVE SONG SINGING, IN LOVE WITH THE STARS FIREFLY FROM PRINCESS AND THE FROG MOVIE. He is like one of those annoying side characters they always stick in, like Flounder in the Mermaid movie or.... the candlestick in Beauty and The Beast. But it sings in FRENCH to his lover, Evangeline. He gets possess when he thinks someone else is in love with it. <3 GOD. I WANT ONE. TO JUST SING FOR ME.
I realized that I only become deeply entrenched in a new fandom when I need to transfer real emotions off of something. My life has been pretty stable, so Naruto has stayed pretty much my fandom for the time despite it's being pretty much dead to me, as a lot of those emotions are now. The emotional transferal being that of Gaara at the time. He had a lot of the same problems that I had at the time (his father being a dick = my father decided to contact me after something like ten years, etc, etc) as well as being a manipulative fuck like that guy who will not be named that I was trying to stop caring about. You see the pattern here? This time it's I am trying to transfer my emotions off someone who is older than me, far more experience than I, indifferently active in his fate. The vassal for my retarded fangirl crush is this time Washington from RedvsBlue. Washington who has had Both are totally emotionally or whatever unavailable to me.
Someone else tell me I am not alone with my ability to do this? I can't figure out if its normal or not. I am just trying to redirect my emotions, allow myself to pine for something that I cannot have, because Washington is not real. I can obsess over him, in a obscure kinda fan way. Much easier to deal with nay?
Happy Part:
OMFG I WANT THE HILLBILLY, FRENCH LOVE SONG SINGING, IN LOVE WITH THE STARS FIREFLY FROM PRINCESS AND THE FROG MOVIE. He is like one of those annoying side characters they always stick in, like Flounder in the Mermaid movie or.... the candlestick in Beauty and The Beast. But it sings in FRENCH to his lover, Evangeline. He gets possess when he thinks someone else is in love with it. <3 GOD. I WANT ONE. TO JUST SING FOR ME.