soooo
I might start updating this thing again. who knows if i will really stick to it.
pretty much my life is amazing right now. Everything seems to be making sense, I am finally investing more in school and not sleeping 47 hours unless i need it, and keeping my room tidy and in general just feeling better than I have in a long time. The people I have taken for granted in the past are finally being valued. I am not letting things bother me as much, because I don't have the energy. I have so much going for me right now that I don't want to deal with the negative...maybe it will just go away.
So yeah, pretty much useless drama that I will never understand keeps finding its way back to me, and I really need to just close the door for real this time so I can not have high blood pressure. (which I checked the other night at harris teeter--it is at a healthy level) I am also not going to hide hapiness or feelings to cater to anyone that might be upset by it, since I did that for far too long.
I am addicted to myspace and emails and text messages and drinking. I might take up smoking so I look tough but I will smell bad, and the bitches hate that shit.
I worked for about two hours today and that was awesome, got chinese food with my homegirl leighanne and went to the british shop and talked to the woman I hope to god isn't german. Sang to sappy songs on my way home and watched my gas light turn on. My car is getting really mad at me lately. I am a bad girlfriend to sissy spacek--just named her that. Maybe she will forgive me now that I love her enough to name her.
I am seriously determined to clean the hell out of my house, scrub any questionable spots that could be cat excrement and wash the couch covers. maybe in the evening I will start to mow the lawn again (vaccuum the lawn) and bang my dick to the smell.
Happy 4th! :)
pretty much my life is amazing right now. Everything seems to be making sense, I am finally investing more in school and not sleeping 47 hours unless i need it, and keeping my room tidy and in general just feeling better than I have in a long time. The people I have taken for granted in the past are finally being valued. I am not letting things bother me as much, because I don't have the energy. I have so much going for me right now that I don't want to deal with the negative...maybe it will just go away.
So yeah, pretty much useless drama that I will never understand keeps finding its way back to me, and I really need to just close the door for real this time so I can not have high blood pressure. (which I checked the other night at harris teeter--it is at a healthy level) I am also not going to hide hapiness or feelings to cater to anyone that might be upset by it, since I did that for far too long.
I am addicted to myspace and emails and text messages and drinking. I might take up smoking so I look tough but I will smell bad, and the bitches hate that shit.
I worked for about two hours today and that was awesome, got chinese food with my homegirl leighanne and went to the british shop and talked to the woman I hope to god isn't german. Sang to sappy songs on my way home and watched my gas light turn on. My car is getting really mad at me lately. I am a bad girlfriend to sissy spacek--just named her that. Maybe she will forgive me now that I love her enough to name her.
I am seriously determined to clean the hell out of my house, scrub any questionable spots that could be cat excrement and wash the couch covers. maybe in the evening I will start to mow the lawn again (vaccuum the lawn) and bang my dick to the smell.
Happy 4th! :)