loveandlife4ever
so, maybe some of you read the "random comment" in my last entry. ok. so last night, im out to dinner with some friends...andrew wont answer my calls and im like, shit something is wrong. so at dinner i keep trying to call him and bob is like "well just get online maybe hes on"...i was alreayd a little drunk by this point. so i get on and all of a sudden i get this message from some random sn about andrew and im like, wtf. by this point, im drunk and im like balling my eyes out. this girl that IMed me was just tlakign to me about him and im like, please just call him and tell him to talk to me. and shes like, he needs time to think. and imlike think about what! i dont know whats going on. etc etc...until finally i waslike, i cant deal with this anymore, im out. and so, my night went to shit from there. i think ive cried for hours straight.........
i get home and im sitting online hoping that the girl would IM me again...i was on a sidekick earlier so i dindt get to save her sn. well, i stayed on for a few minutes then just gave up completely. i start walking away from my comp, and my phone starts buzzing...being on vibrate i couldnt tell who was calling b/c some people have certain rings. anyway, my heart drops and i run to my phone to see that...fucking michael matthews is calling me. "hello?" ahhh yes, michael is drunk...awesome. so we're tlaking about who knows what and finally im like "ok, i need to go to sleep" and hes liek "ok bye sweetie" 5 minutes later, he calls me again. "wehres amanda" ok. OK NOW. this is why i dont fucking hang out with these people anymore. DRAMA. it fucking pisses me off. i dont want to be involved in anyone elses shit, esp when i have my own to deal with! so, being drunk i said something about "oh well she was with me. i talked her into coming out to dinner instead of going to a movie with MATT" ding ding ding. just the name michael was waiting to hear so he could run his fat white ass and tell skinny scrawny austin. WTF. so then. THEN! amanda calls me and is BITCHIGN me out andim like...fuck off. hes cheated on you twice...and you havnet done anything wrong. this is retarded, leave me out of it. so then i call michael back and start yelling about how i dont want to be in their drama. so by this point, everyone is yelling and bitching...and everyone is really drunk...so everyone is just completely out of place, no one is making sence...thus, the conversation between us all is going no where. stupid.
then, matt from jersey beeps in. ah man, if it wasnt for him calling and making me laugh, i might have gone to sleep to never have woken up this morning. last night went from awesome to completely horrible. and its still...completely horrible.
this morning i gave drew one last try. i called, left a sober message, and tried to go back to sleep. tried being the key word...anyway, at 8:30 some random number called and i answered and i wasl iek "hello?" "catherine." OMG. it was andrew and my heart completely exploded. just to know he was ok...even if he is completely mad at me...im glad to know hes ok...b/c i had NO clue where he was last night...and neither did that girl. but anyway, i couldnt get much out of him...except that theres a lot going on or something. basically, i think theres a lot more than just me thats upsetting him...but idk b/c he wont talk. so, i guess ill have to just wait until later tonight. i really hope he calls...
idk if he realizes...if anyone realizes how much i love him. hes the reason i wake up every morning...the reason i have gotten over past relationships (boys and girls)...the reason ive changed who i used to be. hes such a huge part of my life...idk where i woudl be without him...im dying to talk to him right now...to hold him...to kiss him...to love him...
i get home and im sitting online hoping that the girl would IM me again...i was on a sidekick earlier so i dindt get to save her sn. well, i stayed on for a few minutes then just gave up completely. i start walking away from my comp, and my phone starts buzzing...being on vibrate i couldnt tell who was calling b/c some people have certain rings. anyway, my heart drops and i run to my phone to see that...fucking michael matthews is calling me. "hello?" ahhh yes, michael is drunk...awesome. so we're tlaking about who knows what and finally im like "ok, i need to go to sleep" and hes liek "ok bye sweetie" 5 minutes later, he calls me again. "wehres amanda" ok. OK NOW. this is why i dont fucking hang out with these people anymore. DRAMA. it fucking pisses me off. i dont want to be involved in anyone elses shit, esp when i have my own to deal with! so, being drunk i said something about "oh well she was with me. i talked her into coming out to dinner instead of going to a movie with MATT" ding ding ding. just the name michael was waiting to hear so he could run his fat white ass and tell skinny scrawny austin. WTF. so then. THEN! amanda calls me and is BITCHIGN me out andim like...fuck off. hes cheated on you twice...and you havnet done anything wrong. this is retarded, leave me out of it. so then i call michael back and start yelling about how i dont want to be in their drama. so by this point, everyone is yelling and bitching...and everyone is really drunk...so everyone is just completely out of place, no one is making sence...thus, the conversation between us all is going no where. stupid.
then, matt from jersey beeps in. ah man, if it wasnt for him calling and making me laugh, i might have gone to sleep to never have woken up this morning. last night went from awesome to completely horrible. and its still...completely horrible.
this morning i gave drew one last try. i called, left a sober message, and tried to go back to sleep. tried being the key word...anyway, at 8:30 some random number called and i answered and i wasl iek "hello?" "catherine." OMG. it was andrew and my heart completely exploded. just to know he was ok...even if he is completely mad at me...im glad to know hes ok...b/c i had NO clue where he was last night...and neither did that girl. but anyway, i couldnt get much out of him...except that theres a lot going on or something. basically, i think theres a lot more than just me thats upsetting him...but idk b/c he wont talk. so, i guess ill have to just wait until later tonight. i really hope he calls...
idk if he realizes...if anyone realizes how much i love him. hes the reason i wake up every morning...the reason i have gotten over past relationships (boys and girls)...the reason ive changed who i used to be. hes such a huge part of my life...idk where i woudl be without him...im dying to talk to him right now...to hold him...to kiss him...to love him...