fall is the time of the year to think.

[followurheart]

My mind has been racing the past couple of months. Thinking about the people in my life, and the people who were in my life but aren't anymore. I also think about where I will be after college, what kind of job I will have, if I will still have the same friends, will I still be in the same relationship, will I be making money... I don't know about the job situation, because it is hard to tell what exactly I will have the opportunity to do after college, but as far as my friends and relationship go, I can see my life then being as it is now. I like to base my outlook of friendship on the quote "the only people you need in your life are the people who need you in theirs." I only have a handfull of good friends right now. Sometimes that is all you need to get by. The people who are always there for you, who listen to your problems no matter what you are talking about, the people who will make the same effort towards your friendship as you are. The ones who seem to call you right when you need someone to talk to. The people who don't care if they are using up tons of gas money to drive to greensboro. The ones who say "The minute you opened that door, I got my gas money's worth.<3" Those are the people I consider my good friends and those are the people I hope to have in my future.

I drove to my church yesterday to pick up Alexa and it made me think about my Dad, and how I wish he could be in my life right now. I wonder if things would be the same if he were here. Would my mom be having the hardships she does if he were here with her? I took Alexa to triad park, and while she was playing I just sat there and thought back to when he was here with us. My mind wonders when im sitting out there at the park.

Everything happens for a reason, right?