Ammon...
i suppose you have all heard about Ammon Craine drowning this weekend... and we had a memorial after the football game... and even though i had never seen him, never talked to him, i felt for all the people there who knew him and loved him. and there were many who loved him. i started crying the moment that the candles were lit, silent tears at first but after a while i just started bawling, i couldnt stop the tears anymore and i creid and i cried and i cried... and during the prayer josh prophet come over and hold my hand and tell me to be strong... the kid who wanted to beat me up a few weeks ago... was comforting me and in that moment i loved him. after the prayer i decided i better go to the locker room and on the way there i found colleen and jordan and we just kinda cried for a while. and after a while there i started toward the locker room and i fell and i just laid there and cried and then this black kid came and helped me up and said that ammon wouldnt want me to feel sad and sent me on my way after we hugged.. and then i got to the locker room and went in and they were talking about FOOTBAll... i didnt understand how they could be sitting in there talking about football when we had just had a memorial service for a kid who had died... so i just sat inside my locker and cried for 20 minutes or so... and then i went on a walk with Jeremiah, this varsity player who goes to my church and we talked for a while and he was just making sure i was ok and then i got him to show me where Ammon's locker was and i went over to it and pulled the stool out and sat there and cried...after that i got up and went home... and then i had to drive 2 hours to columbus to play in a soccer game the next morning... and i decided that i would play in that game for Ammon b/c he would have wanted me to.. so i dedicated that game to him and i got a goal for him but we still lost... but i played with more strength and stamina and energy then i had ever played with before... but im gonna go to his funeral on wenesday... i wouldnt miss it for the world... but why did ammon have to die, why him, he was young with his entire life ahead of him and then he was gone and hes not coming back...