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So i was thinking last night about all these things that would be different in my life,
What if was a straight A student?
would that mean that i would have got the scholarship?
Would it mean that i would be doing something different to art?
What if i had left 6 years ago when i was meant to?
Would that have saved me the heartache from mr.p?
Would we have more money than we do now?
What would happen if my dad became a pilot?
Would i even be here?
And you know, on and on and on and on and on like that. And i was thinking geezus woman. Don't be so damn pathetic, you can't change anything thats made you who and where you are now. So DEAL WITH IT.
And then i thought. yea. But thats not hard... I have a lot of problems and my life sure as hell isn't picture perfect but i like it. In Fact... I love it.
So today i'm going to go Grocery shopping, not with my mum... FOR my mum. Not mentioning that sleeping at 3am and waking up at 830 should be banned. It's not good for one's health! Her cheery "good mornings" made me wanna leap over the bed and puke all contents of my stomach. Seriously, its so aggravating to here the jovial greeting when literally it feels like someone has taken sledgehammer to the inside of my skull.
I replied with a grunt. :D
This weekend was great, well the holiday at least, well okay... the days when i did things. Halloween was so cool, i spent the day making kiddy games. I'm such a mum i tell you... But i loved it anyway and the kids loved it. Hanging out with ilse was great too, we always find so much crap to talk about no matter what we do. And we've decided that we're going to go backpacking ishly next year around Europe, we're going to work and experience the Cliche EuroTrip. And we're doing it. We have to. I'm basing the whole application to Uni on this.
Argh. Okay sorry. I'd like to carry on but A) i can't be arsed :D and B) i've got to go by plums. :)
What if was a straight A student?
would that mean that i would have got the scholarship?
Would it mean that i would be doing something different to art?
What if i had left 6 years ago when i was meant to?
Would that have saved me the heartache from mr.p?
Would we have more money than we do now?
What would happen if my dad became a pilot?
Would i even be here?
And you know, on and on and on and on and on like that. And i was thinking geezus woman. Don't be so damn pathetic, you can't change anything thats made you who and where you are now. So DEAL WITH IT.
And then i thought. yea. But thats not hard... I have a lot of problems and my life sure as hell isn't picture perfect but i like it. In Fact... I love it.
So today i'm going to go Grocery shopping, not with my mum... FOR my mum. Not mentioning that sleeping at 3am and waking up at 830 should be banned. It's not good for one's health! Her cheery "good mornings" made me wanna leap over the bed and puke all contents of my stomach. Seriously, its so aggravating to here the jovial greeting when literally it feels like someone has taken sledgehammer to the inside of my skull.
I replied with a grunt. :D
This weekend was great, well the holiday at least, well okay... the days when i did things. Halloween was so cool, i spent the day making kiddy games. I'm such a mum i tell you... But i loved it anyway and the kids loved it. Hanging out with ilse was great too, we always find so much crap to talk about no matter what we do. And we've decided that we're going to go backpacking ishly next year around Europe, we're going to work and experience the Cliche EuroTrip. And we're doing it. We have to. I'm basing the whole application to Uni on this.
Argh. Okay sorry. I'd like to carry on but A) i can't be arsed :D and B) i've got to go by plums. :)