Decadence
Title: Decadence
Pairing: Bush/Hornblower
Rating: R
Summary: You can't restrain your true desire.
Disclaimers: They are not mine nor I'm making money writing about them.
William.
Wi-lli-am.
Please say my name again.
William.
It's only a noise.
It's only a name.
It's my name upon your kissed lips.
It's a brand new day framing the purest form of love. You.
Here I am sitting with you, we are playing this act: First lieutenant in love with his Captain.
What should I do, I just can't restrain myself from not loving you. Count my breathes, I will lie for you. Look into my eyes, I will break any rule for you, until you will see that you are just like me. But you don't want to believe me.
Kiss my lips, I will kill for you and sell my body and soul for someone pure and true, like you. Twist your sword until you will see that you are just like me. You won't believe me but you can't ignore me. You will believe me, on hands and knees violating and understanding that I would die for you.
Look at your sword and tear me apart. But you can't kill me, you can only make me stronger.
So when the night comes, enveloping this blinding ship made of shimmering darkness and forgotten promises, you can laugh at my burning needs.
I'm the deep blue ocean and I'm cruel, you said, cruel for asking you to break rules and put aside duties. But I need you right here, right now. I'm tired of the you can look but you can't touch. Too many years and too many lost times so now don't worry we will be all right, just push me and I will set you on fire.
I'm too complicated and paranoid, I heard you say but your silence keeps me awake.
I can't change and I have my duties. Carry on, please carry on, come on use me, bend me, break me, anyway you need me. But tonight you are consigning me your sword and your epaulet shines against your weakens.
Dance in front of me, moving slowly. Please slowly. I need you right now. I want you here, right now. Slowly, let's get lost tonight. You can be my muse tonight. We don't even need to worry about tomorrow. No one will know. No one needs to know, what we do behind closed doors.
A captain fucks the mind of his first lieutenant. A lieutenant fucks the body of his captain. It's a joke, it's a glass of wine, it's your silence driving me to madness. It's madness transforming into feverish kisses. It's your mouth searching my tongue.
The way your eyes are challenging me while your hands are sliding on my back bringing me toward your body.
I'm forgetting my enemies and from where I come. The places I've been. The faces I saw. The war I fought in your name. Horatio. I come bare and defenseless. And you can say what you want, you can make me sing and scream. Sweat and sell myself.
Sitting here on my lap you are throwing me away, far distant from here, from this ship made of bright darkness and shimmering lies. And we can be what you want. Lace and red lip gloss. It's decadence smearing sensual needs all over our bodies.
I can be what you want. High. Daring. Faster. Stronger. You don't kill me, you only make me stronger and you are my muse enveloped in shimmering lies and broken promises. You tried my patience hard and now you can only lie under me and break your silence.
My world and my space. My time and my obsessions.
I know you since forever. We grew old together but you never listened to me. But tonight, me and you, tonight, moist sounds and your hand brushing mine, this is my show. This is our show.
You can bite me hard and pretend to be the person you want to be. You can fill your emptiness with me because there are too many, thousands reasons why you should be with me. Kiss me and I will tell you everything you want to know.
Lick my desire and taste my passion. Walking slowly, brushing against cold, sticky walls covered with sugar dust. We are sliding down on the floor, you are scratching my back and moaning my name while I'm sliding inside you.
What I can offer to you, will be placed on a silver plate.
I don't need to know if you are pleased with it or not because I can read it in your bottomless eyes. Catch this moment. Sugary feelings, sticky emotions. Your body pressed against mine. Dare and do everything you like because you can dance along with me. Don't be afraid to let yourself go because I will be there to catch you.
In my arms against a wall covered with sugary words of love and devotion; you can build and you can destroy with just a glance. But I remain. I remain here against your body. I remain here tied to all your words and to your will. Feel my hands on your skin. I need you right now. Let's get lost tonight. Brush my chest and feel my heart, open your hand and take what I'm giving to you.
Everybody will wonder. Everybody will wonder who you are. When you do this. When you get on your knees and whisper that it's all about lies and human needs. But you are killing me, with your body and kisses. With your lies and the mask you like to wear. Look at me I'm gently untying it.
Now you can see yourself. Now you can kiss yourself, while I fuck you in front of a mirror and you can see yourself and who you truly are. You can see how we move and dance together. Again and again I can see you better than anyone. On the mirror surface, smeared red lip gloss.
Throwing back your head and riding your orgasm, sometimes words are too overwhelming for you. Never been good with emotion. You said. In the end this is your show. Leaving behind pieces of yourself for me to collect, waiting for the last one, waiting for the day you will consign your sword to me.
These nights, these nights knows you so damn well. The way you give yourself away, the way you sometimes like to fool yourself. Pretending. Faking. Fighting what your true nature is. Where your place is. Here with me.
Oh caged heart you won't listen to my mind!
Red lip gloss smeared on your lips and on my thumb. You don't need to say how much it pleases you. All those gaps you try to fill and the way lace slides over your smooth skin. And now sitting on your cot, I don't know if you got my message.
I don't care about anything anymore. I just want you here with me. At least give me back what you stole from me.
Dawn is chasing the night and between few hours this ship will be awake and I will be lost. Lost between duties and rules. Lost between what is wrong and what is right. Don't you know that sometimes even the right is wrong?
You are like a little lie that I can say. A little whisper that needs to stay secret. Opening my eyes you are staring at me. My smell is lingering on you. You capture my lips and I can feel you crying. Crying and kissing because sometimes what you want it's not what you wished to be. Falling in love for a man, for your best friend, for your subordinate wasn't what you expected. No one needed to know. No one need to untie your mask. But this is your little show and it's meant for me.
Morning light enveloping us. I can't tell you what you do to me. The way you let the last piece of yourself fall, now definitely giving yourself away. No more afraid just tired to go back to what you used to be. Tired to be far away from me. You don't care and don't want to justify yourself.
It's not like I never told you. Don't act like I never told you. It's not like you never wanted this. Don't act like you never wanted this. And then you let silence speak it for you. Through your dark eyes, through your fingers spreading lightly on my strong arms, through your sweet kisses and greedy mouth.
Never thought that I could burn so fast. Never thought to leave any trace, being totally destroyed and remade by the love I nourish for you.
William.
Wi-lli-am.
Pairing: Bush/Hornblower
Rating: R
Summary: You can't restrain your true desire.
Disclaimers: They are not mine nor I'm making money writing about them.
William.
Wi-lli-am.
Please say my name again.
William.
It's only a noise.
It's only a name.
It's my name upon your kissed lips.
It's a brand new day framing the purest form of love. You.
Here I am sitting with you, we are playing this act: First lieutenant in love with his Captain.
What should I do, I just can't restrain myself from not loving you. Count my breathes, I will lie for you. Look into my eyes, I will break any rule for you, until you will see that you are just like me. But you don't want to believe me.
Kiss my lips, I will kill for you and sell my body and soul for someone pure and true, like you. Twist your sword until you will see that you are just like me. You won't believe me but you can't ignore me. You will believe me, on hands and knees violating and understanding that I would die for you.
Look at your sword and tear me apart. But you can't kill me, you can only make me stronger.
So when the night comes, enveloping this blinding ship made of shimmering darkness and forgotten promises, you can laugh at my burning needs.
I'm the deep blue ocean and I'm cruel, you said, cruel for asking you to break rules and put aside duties. But I need you right here, right now. I'm tired of the you can look but you can't touch. Too many years and too many lost times so now don't worry we will be all right, just push me and I will set you on fire.
I'm too complicated and paranoid, I heard you say but your silence keeps me awake.
I can't change and I have my duties. Carry on, please carry on, come on use me, bend me, break me, anyway you need me. But tonight you are consigning me your sword and your epaulet shines against your weakens.
Dance in front of me, moving slowly. Please slowly. I need you right now. I want you here, right now. Slowly, let's get lost tonight. You can be my muse tonight. We don't even need to worry about tomorrow. No one will know. No one needs to know, what we do behind closed doors.
A captain fucks the mind of his first lieutenant. A lieutenant fucks the body of his captain. It's a joke, it's a glass of wine, it's your silence driving me to madness. It's madness transforming into feverish kisses. It's your mouth searching my tongue.
The way your eyes are challenging me while your hands are sliding on my back bringing me toward your body.
I'm forgetting my enemies and from where I come. The places I've been. The faces I saw. The war I fought in your name. Horatio. I come bare and defenseless. And you can say what you want, you can make me sing and scream. Sweat and sell myself.
Sitting here on my lap you are throwing me away, far distant from here, from this ship made of bright darkness and shimmering lies. And we can be what you want. Lace and red lip gloss. It's decadence smearing sensual needs all over our bodies.
I can be what you want. High. Daring. Faster. Stronger. You don't kill me, you only make me stronger and you are my muse enveloped in shimmering lies and broken promises. You tried my patience hard and now you can only lie under me and break your silence.
My world and my space. My time and my obsessions.
I know you since forever. We grew old together but you never listened to me. But tonight, me and you, tonight, moist sounds and your hand brushing mine, this is my show. This is our show.
You can bite me hard and pretend to be the person you want to be. You can fill your emptiness with me because there are too many, thousands reasons why you should be with me. Kiss me and I will tell you everything you want to know.
Lick my desire and taste my passion. Walking slowly, brushing against cold, sticky walls covered with sugar dust. We are sliding down on the floor, you are scratching my back and moaning my name while I'm sliding inside you.
What I can offer to you, will be placed on a silver plate.
I don't need to know if you are pleased with it or not because I can read it in your bottomless eyes. Catch this moment. Sugary feelings, sticky emotions. Your body pressed against mine. Dare and do everything you like because you can dance along with me. Don't be afraid to let yourself go because I will be there to catch you.
In my arms against a wall covered with sugary words of love and devotion; you can build and you can destroy with just a glance. But I remain. I remain here against your body. I remain here tied to all your words and to your will. Feel my hands on your skin. I need you right now. Let's get lost tonight. Brush my chest and feel my heart, open your hand and take what I'm giving to you.
Everybody will wonder. Everybody will wonder who you are. When you do this. When you get on your knees and whisper that it's all about lies and human needs. But you are killing me, with your body and kisses. With your lies and the mask you like to wear. Look at me I'm gently untying it.
Now you can see yourself. Now you can kiss yourself, while I fuck you in front of a mirror and you can see yourself and who you truly are. You can see how we move and dance together. Again and again I can see you better than anyone. On the mirror surface, smeared red lip gloss.
Throwing back your head and riding your orgasm, sometimes words are too overwhelming for you. Never been good with emotion. You said. In the end this is your show. Leaving behind pieces of yourself for me to collect, waiting for the last one, waiting for the day you will consign your sword to me.
These nights, these nights knows you so damn well. The way you give yourself away, the way you sometimes like to fool yourself. Pretending. Faking. Fighting what your true nature is. Where your place is. Here with me.
Oh caged heart you won't listen to my mind!
Red lip gloss smeared on your lips and on my thumb. You don't need to say how much it pleases you. All those gaps you try to fill and the way lace slides over your smooth skin. And now sitting on your cot, I don't know if you got my message.
I don't care about anything anymore. I just want you here with me. At least give me back what you stole from me.
Dawn is chasing the night and between few hours this ship will be awake and I will be lost. Lost between duties and rules. Lost between what is wrong and what is right. Don't you know that sometimes even the right is wrong?
You are like a little lie that I can say. A little whisper that needs to stay secret. Opening my eyes you are staring at me. My smell is lingering on you. You capture my lips and I can feel you crying. Crying and kissing because sometimes what you want it's not what you wished to be. Falling in love for a man, for your best friend, for your subordinate wasn't what you expected. No one needed to know. No one need to untie your mask. But this is your little show and it's meant for me.
Morning light enveloping us. I can't tell you what you do to me. The way you let the last piece of yourself fall, now definitely giving yourself away. No more afraid just tired to go back to what you used to be. Tired to be far away from me. You don't care and don't want to justify yourself.
It's not like I never told you. Don't act like I never told you. It's not like you never wanted this. Don't act like you never wanted this. And then you let silence speak it for you. Through your dark eyes, through your fingers spreading lightly on my strong arms, through your sweet kisses and greedy mouth.
Never thought that I could burn so fast. Never thought to leave any trace, being totally destroyed and remade by the love I nourish for you.
William.
Wi-lli-am.