Day After
So, this is the day after my B-Day post.
Well it is another year and more prof that nobody realy remembers me. That is all reality I don't matter one shit. And I might well have been much better off dead at 6 and a half.
I had the whole day to think about myself. Nobody called me. Two people did. One my family, and two my ex-Girlfreind who thought she would spend the day tring to make it better. This was suposed to happen by us going out to the bar for some stupid Lefty shit. not that Leftys are stupid, but the event was drinking and making fun of Sarah Palen, I don't like doing this because every time I hear the name Sarah I think of my dead best Friend.
So, I went to work.
So, I thought I would go see some friends, not bad. But then I was called and asked when I would be home to get the Ex and go to thing.
I show up At Home, and state two places I would like to go eat.
We go to a Third, and it called in my B-day what I waint. Fuck that shit, She pays, just to show how useless my life is, I realy cann't aford to say no, which is all I would like to say at this point.
Then she does not feel well so we don't go to the said event.
She instead has us view the Movie she got me. Not that I don't like said movie, It just one I don't waint to own. I don't like owning Disney movies. She gave it to me, and then she has us view it for my Birth day. This would be nice if she had whatched it with me. But no she looked at shit to buy to put in her new place that she is getting with the replacment man.
Then when the movie is over. I am thinking fine I will just drink the end of my Birthday away, she don't join me. So if I would like to DRINK THE FUCKING PLAN FOR MY BIRTHDAY I NOW HAVE TO DRINK ALONE.
This thought just futher makes me think My life is shit and I should just kill myself tonight when it would only hert, Her but realy in the long run she forget about me anyway and her life would be better off.
So, I retreat into a stupid game that I have never been able to win. That is why I like to play it, I come close to wining but I never quit make it. And she Sit beside me and turns on this most depressing FILM I can imagen about RACE in america, and contenues to shop for SHIT ONLINE.
This was my Birthday 28 time round the SUN and none the better off for IT.
Now I have to go to bed so I can get yelled at WORK tomarrow.
And that the best thing I have to look farward to in my LIFE.
And IF nobody post any fucking replays I will just turn this into a jurnal for myself.
Well it is another year and more prof that nobody realy remembers me. That is all reality I don't matter one shit. And I might well have been much better off dead at 6 and a half.
I had the whole day to think about myself. Nobody called me. Two people did. One my family, and two my ex-Girlfreind who thought she would spend the day tring to make it better. This was suposed to happen by us going out to the bar for some stupid Lefty shit. not that Leftys are stupid, but the event was drinking and making fun of Sarah Palen, I don't like doing this because every time I hear the name Sarah I think of my dead best Friend.
So, I went to work.
So, I thought I would go see some friends, not bad. But then I was called and asked when I would be home to get the Ex and go to thing.
I show up At Home, and state two places I would like to go eat.
We go to a Third, and it called in my B-day what I waint. Fuck that shit, She pays, just to show how useless my life is, I realy cann't aford to say no, which is all I would like to say at this point.
Then she does not feel well so we don't go to the said event.
She instead has us view the Movie she got me. Not that I don't like said movie, It just one I don't waint to own. I don't like owning Disney movies. She gave it to me, and then she has us view it for my Birth day. This would be nice if she had whatched it with me. But no she looked at shit to buy to put in her new place that she is getting with the replacment man.
Then when the movie is over. I am thinking fine I will just drink the end of my Birthday away, she don't join me. So if I would like to DRINK THE FUCKING PLAN FOR MY BIRTHDAY I NOW HAVE TO DRINK ALONE.
This thought just futher makes me think My life is shit and I should just kill myself tonight when it would only hert, Her but realy in the long run she forget about me anyway and her life would be better off.
So, I retreat into a stupid game that I have never been able to win. That is why I like to play it, I come close to wining but I never quit make it. And she Sit beside me and turns on this most depressing FILM I can imagen about RACE in america, and contenues to shop for SHIT ONLINE.
This was my Birthday 28 time round the SUN and none the better off for IT.
Now I have to go to bed so I can get yelled at WORK tomarrow.
And that the best thing I have to look farward to in my LIFE.
And IF nobody post any fucking replays I will just turn this into a jurnal for myself.