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"You must train your intuition -- you must trust the small voice inside you which tells you exactly what to say, what to decide."
At the moment of truth, I always heard my father.
It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out why. I've always been a daddy's girl, and I used to spend hours talking with my dad, especially after I decided that I wanted to go into law enforcement as a profession. He was my first mentor. I picked his brain on everything that I possibly could (and I wasn't the first to do so, nor the last). Even though I lost him well before his time, he's always still been with me. When we were in Mexico, and I was prepared to lay down my life to save John and Agent Reyes, I heard my father telling me that I was doing the right thing.
But my inner voice isn't just my father. Not anymore. When it comes down to it, I've asked myself what others would do. I've asked myself what Scully, and later Mulder, would do on many an occasion. It's only natural, given that the X-Files were theirs and will always be, even if it's now me and my husband who have to carry on. And I've asked myself a lot what John would do. Not as much as you might think, given that he is usually right there with me doing it, but sometimes. I've surrounded myself with smart people and when it matters most I want to know what they think. That's how I trained my instinct; I found the smartest people I could and I learned from them. They put me together.
Now when the moment of truth happens the voice I hear is my own. And I believe in it, because they believe in me.
Muse: Stark Patrick
Fandom: The X-Files (OC)
Words: 282
At the moment of truth, I always heard my father.
It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out why. I've always been a daddy's girl, and I used to spend hours talking with my dad, especially after I decided that I wanted to go into law enforcement as a profession. He was my first mentor. I picked his brain on everything that I possibly could (and I wasn't the first to do so, nor the last). Even though I lost him well before his time, he's always still been with me. When we were in Mexico, and I was prepared to lay down my life to save John and Agent Reyes, I heard my father telling me that I was doing the right thing.
But my inner voice isn't just my father. Not anymore. When it comes down to it, I've asked myself what others would do. I've asked myself what Scully, and later Mulder, would do on many an occasion. It's only natural, given that the X-Files were theirs and will always be, even if it's now me and my husband who have to carry on. And I've asked myself a lot what John would do. Not as much as you might think, given that he is usually right there with me doing it, but sometimes. I've surrounded myself with smart people and when it matters most I want to know what they think. That's how I trained my instinct; I found the smartest people I could and I learned from them. They put me together.
Now when the moment of truth happens the voice I hear is my own. And I believe in it, because they believe in me.
Muse: Stark Patrick
Fandom: The X-Files (OC)
Words: 282