reemerging from the murky depths
my semester ended last week! i'm happy with my grades and, for the most part, with what i learned. i had one professor who was pretty horrible and should not teach, but the others were grand.
i'm working full-time over my break (and am very grateful for the extra cash. cannot even explain how grateful), but i'm still going to find time to have some fun. i'm chilling with three friends i haven't seen in a while this week. tonight, i'm having coffee with the bassist from my first cd, whom i haven't seen in nearly 3 years. where does time go? it goes somewhere without me noticing, especially when i have blinders on. i tend to wear those, especially when i'm hella busy.
that's what i have to work on: balancing school and work with some down time, some alone time, some time to reflect or meditate or journal. i've had none of that. what's ironic is that i've been learning about counseling all semester, and i'm in dire need of therapy. i know that my constant venting is taking its toll on people who are close to me. i want to focus more on the positive things in life. it's difficult, and because i'm prone to depression (especially during stressful times), it's that much more difficult. in 2006, i want to pay more attention to taking care of myself. that was what i began doing in early 2005, and then i somehow lost sight of my goal, even though it didn't seem like it.
i think that (while i love shay to death and this is not her fault at all) being in a relationship can really cause one to lose sight of personal needs. i don't know if that's due to my co-dependent streak or what, but i have the hardest time deciding when i want to see her and when i need to have time to myself. because i miss her a bunch when she's not around.
i'm very happy that christmas is over. it was wonderful this year, but it's always stressful. just glad it's over.
something totally different:
oliver, when're you joining me here in skillman?
i'm working full-time over my break (and am very grateful for the extra cash. cannot even explain how grateful), but i'm still going to find time to have some fun. i'm chilling with three friends i haven't seen in a while this week. tonight, i'm having coffee with the bassist from my first cd, whom i haven't seen in nearly 3 years. where does time go? it goes somewhere without me noticing, especially when i have blinders on. i tend to wear those, especially when i'm hella busy.
that's what i have to work on: balancing school and work with some down time, some alone time, some time to reflect or meditate or journal. i've had none of that. what's ironic is that i've been learning about counseling all semester, and i'm in dire need of therapy. i know that my constant venting is taking its toll on people who are close to me. i want to focus more on the positive things in life. it's difficult, and because i'm prone to depression (especially during stressful times), it's that much more difficult. in 2006, i want to pay more attention to taking care of myself. that was what i began doing in early 2005, and then i somehow lost sight of my goal, even though it didn't seem like it.
i think that (while i love shay to death and this is not her fault at all) being in a relationship can really cause one to lose sight of personal needs. i don't know if that's due to my co-dependent streak or what, but i have the hardest time deciding when i want to see her and when i need to have time to myself. because i miss her a bunch when she's not around.
i'm very happy that christmas is over. it was wonderful this year, but it's always stressful. just glad it's over.
something totally different:
oliver, when're you joining me here in skillman?