Just going through the motions

[foleychica212]

So I've never felt the way that I'm feeling at this point in my life. I've been through hard times but I don't think that they have ever been this bad.My mind just won't stop. I try to get away but I can't. I just keep thinking about the same things over and over again and everytime I think I want to cry. I don't know whats going to happen but I know that in the next 2 weeks that my life will be changed drastically and not in a good way. I just want to run away from everything, but I don't know how I can run away from everything that is hurting me and not run away from the things that I love. I know that everything can't be my way and life CAN'T be perfect...but somehow I wish it could.

There is so much that I wish I could change...there is so much I wish had never happened and then again there is so much stuff that happened and I am so happy that it did.

*Just pray for me please.