Derek never thought he'd have an archnemesis.
I'm trying to find someone who reminds me of him. Skinny. Long Hair. Big Lips. I'm trying to find a replacement for someone who doesn't dserve my time.
Por Ti
Yo se muy bien
que a veces no suelo decir
lo que mi corazon siente por ti
y se que a veces yo no estoy aqui
por ti pero te quiero confesar, a ti
Si mi vida ha de continuar
si otro dia llegara
si he de volver a comenzar
sera por ti
Si mi vida ha de continuar
si otro dia llegara
si he de volver a comenzar
sera por tu amor
Y se tambien que yo te puedo lastimar
perdoname, se que me suelo equivocar
Si mi vida ha de continuar
si otro dia llegara
si he de volver a comenzar
sera por ti
Si mi vida ha de continuar
si otro dia llegara
si he de volver a comenzar
sera por tu amor
uh uhh......
Si algo te puedo asegurar
uh uhh......
Es que mi vida la soñe contigo
eres todo lo que necesito
y aqui me quiero quedar .
Si mi vida ha de continuar
si otro dia llegara
si he de volver a comenzar
sera por tu amor
ah ah......
por tu amor
ah ahhh.....
Sera por ti, sera por ti,
sera por ti, sera por ti....
This song made me cry today. I've heard it so many times before... but today I understood exactly what these words say. And they made me feel really bad. I was actually wrong.
I'm a horrible, horrible person. I realized that the things that Javier Arrocha said about me... were completely true. Soy un asco de persona. And I still am.
I also realized that I still like him deeply. And I know he's not worth it but I can't help it. Yo se que para sacar un clavo hay que meter otro... but I've tried and I'm about to give up. I can't get over him and I don't know why. I'm frustrating myself trying to figure this out. And I'm hurting other people in the process because still like him so much. It's not even like a whatever liking you... it's powerful stuff and I hate it. He hates me.
I woke up today... at 1 in the afternoon and Maro asked me to go to Ken's to go swimming. I didn't really know whether I wanted to go but I also didn't know whether it'd be the last time I'd be seeing Jose, Rogelio, Rogelio, and Ken... So I went. It was fun and I got kind of drunk. I had maybe like 6 coronas or something. I slapped Maro. Hah. It was fun because we jsut sat around laughing and joking around. And I got to see Johnny whom I hadn't seen in ages. So that was excellent. Ruben abd Gianks came and of course... Ruben put on a show. Because he's like the gayest lifeform on the planet. He has like a dance to every Abba song in existance. Anyway... Maro and I went to get Popeye's because I hadn't eaten all day and that's why I was tipsy. "Look my face. Look my hair. Look my body." So when we come back night has fallen and people are beginning to throw chiky shows and are leaving. Ruben wanted Gianks to Chaufer him and Angelface around. But he didn't want to leave me so La Bambi se emputo.
We went to Jose's house and chilled for a while and people had pizza. We went to a friend of Jose's house y de ahi empezo la intriga. I was freaking about to throw myself off the ledge. First of all... Adrian arrives with his two best friends. Yeah this is the guy who told me who I left him like a hurt puppy. So we had this awkward hello where he didn't know whether he was going to even say hello to me. And then it just went down hill from there. Javier Arrocha came... and Gianks knows him and they started talking as if they were best friends and of course I'm half way across the room being chastised by the gay community. I decided that any gay guy who associates themselves with me in Panama, their penis will fall off because... I'm evil. Ugh I felt like crap because... I still like him. And he hates me. Oh... and like 15 mintues later all the gays who were friends with them LEFT. Why? Oh, because I was there. Too much Derek is like too much radiation. Your skin starts to fall off and you die a slow death. Adrian's best friend was hitting on Gianks. I was laughing my ass off.
We went back to Jose's house because that party was just... ugh. Worst game of I never have... of my life. Something about puke... and asking if I kissed him before or after I puked and getting mad, feeling gross inside and realizing that he was Friday - Sunday. Gianks asked me if he could hold my hand on the ride home. I said nothing and didn't let him hold my hand. I bet he resents giving me a ride home now.
So I'm pretty much a horrid person. Soy un asco de persona.
To sum it all up: a;sjghjk;ahsrg;kahsrgihjqweiorgh'asknbl;.
Por Ti
Yo se muy bien
que a veces no suelo decir
lo que mi corazon siente por ti
y se que a veces yo no estoy aqui
por ti pero te quiero confesar, a ti
Si mi vida ha de continuar
si otro dia llegara
si he de volver a comenzar
sera por ti
Si mi vida ha de continuar
si otro dia llegara
si he de volver a comenzar
sera por tu amor
Y se tambien que yo te puedo lastimar
perdoname, se que me suelo equivocar
Si mi vida ha de continuar
si otro dia llegara
si he de volver a comenzar
sera por ti
Si mi vida ha de continuar
si otro dia llegara
si he de volver a comenzar
sera por tu amor
uh uhh......
Si algo te puedo asegurar
uh uhh......
Es que mi vida la soñe contigo
eres todo lo que necesito
y aqui me quiero quedar .
Si mi vida ha de continuar
si otro dia llegara
si he de volver a comenzar
sera por tu amor
ah ah......
por tu amor
ah ahhh.....
Sera por ti, sera por ti,
sera por ti, sera por ti....
This song made me cry today. I've heard it so many times before... but today I understood exactly what these words say. And they made me feel really bad. I was actually wrong.
I'm a horrible, horrible person. I realized that the things that Javier Arrocha said about me... were completely true. Soy un asco de persona. And I still am.
I also realized that I still like him deeply. And I know he's not worth it but I can't help it. Yo se que para sacar un clavo hay que meter otro... but I've tried and I'm about to give up. I can't get over him and I don't know why. I'm frustrating myself trying to figure this out. And I'm hurting other people in the process because still like him so much. It's not even like a whatever liking you... it's powerful stuff and I hate it. He hates me.
I woke up today... at 1 in the afternoon and Maro asked me to go to Ken's to go swimming. I didn't really know whether I wanted to go but I also didn't know whether it'd be the last time I'd be seeing Jose, Rogelio, Rogelio, and Ken... So I went. It was fun and I got kind of drunk. I had maybe like 6 coronas or something. I slapped Maro. Hah. It was fun because we jsut sat around laughing and joking around. And I got to see Johnny whom I hadn't seen in ages. So that was excellent. Ruben abd Gianks came and of course... Ruben put on a show. Because he's like the gayest lifeform on the planet. He has like a dance to every Abba song in existance. Anyway... Maro and I went to get Popeye's because I hadn't eaten all day and that's why I was tipsy. "Look my face. Look my hair. Look my body." So when we come back night has fallen and people are beginning to throw chiky shows and are leaving. Ruben wanted Gianks to Chaufer him and Angelface around. But he didn't want to leave me so La Bambi se emputo.
We went to Jose's house and chilled for a while and people had pizza. We went to a friend of Jose's house y de ahi empezo la intriga. I was freaking about to throw myself off the ledge. First of all... Adrian arrives with his two best friends. Yeah this is the guy who told me who I left him like a hurt puppy. So we had this awkward hello where he didn't know whether he was going to even say hello to me. And then it just went down hill from there. Javier Arrocha came... and Gianks knows him and they started talking as if they were best friends and of course I'm half way across the room being chastised by the gay community. I decided that any gay guy who associates themselves with me in Panama, their penis will fall off because... I'm evil. Ugh I felt like crap because... I still like him. And he hates me. Oh... and like 15 mintues later all the gays who were friends with them LEFT. Why? Oh, because I was there. Too much Derek is like too much radiation. Your skin starts to fall off and you die a slow death. Adrian's best friend was hitting on Gianks. I was laughing my ass off.
We went back to Jose's house because that party was just... ugh. Worst game of I never have... of my life. Something about puke... and asking if I kissed him before or after I puked and getting mad, feeling gross inside and realizing that he was Friday - Sunday. Gianks asked me if he could hold my hand on the ride home. I said nothing and didn't let him hold my hand. I bet he resents giving me a ride home now.
So I'm pretty much a horrid person. Soy un asco de persona.
To sum it all up: a;sjghjk;ahsrg;kahsrgihjqweiorgh'asknbl;.