Pot luck & such
Went to a pot luck dinner last night after snowboarding with TC all day. It was fun, met some new people, ate yummy food. The only people I knew were Dan & his girl, which I'm starting to think is getting easier (hanging out with the both of them). Better to just get used to it and enjoy his company anyway, he rules. He seems awfully protective of me though, strangely. I was thinking about it.. Always inviting me everywhere. And when I got to the strange new house last night he met me outside like he was waiting, and served me right away. He had made a vegetarian dish the night before I think so I'd have something to eat. Then sat me down, I talked with him and girlface for a bit. Then he got up to get me a drink and I talked with girlface, who seems alright after all. Then we all went into the kitchen and as usual I ended up standing awkwardly on the outside of the circle but didn't much care as I was busying myself with the cat, Tiki, who dives into the fridge when you open it an hides in the back. I glanced up at Dan and he head-nodded me to come over and stand with him, and kept trying to bring me into the convo. Then we went into the livingroom to watch Step Brothers and the couches/chairs were arranged tightly, not enough space for everyone, so I beat most to the awkward punch and just sat in one of the dining room chairs behind the couches so everyone else would have a spot. Dan came to sit at the table with me and girlface sat on the couch & called him over. He got all weird, and I think he was motioning to me like he felt bad I was sitting on the outside (which I honestly didn't care about), then groaned & got up & went to sit in the middle of the couch. After some whispers girlface called me over and I saw they had squeezed themselves to make an akward spot between dan & this other kid. I laughed & said I'd be alright. And then he kept looking at me during the movie. I shouldn't have told him I had feelings. He's all worried about me now like I'll break. I do still adore him, but I'm becoming resigned to the girlfriend and starting to see him as my friend. .
Osiris asked me on a date, Dave wants to take me out tonight. People seem to be genuinely interested in me, I don't need to dwell on a guy who has a girlfriend already. I guess. Jack is getting a little intense about me, is the only problem these days. I want to be close with him, but just as friends, and he knows this, but he just keeps... being romantic and cool and trying really hard. Why can't I want something easy and awesome like that?
I don't even really want a boyfriend, honestly, not right now. I just freaked over Dan cause he kinda took my breath away and I love being surprised like that.