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"I believe in the sanctity of dreams,
no more running from these masqueraders.
I believe that society will never dream like me."
I am frustrated by this feeling of being without control of my life. Year after year I endure these same thoughts. Constantly reacting to unforseen circumstances; compromising my dreams to pay for my failures. Can never get ahead of the game. Always strapped and endlessly stressed. I know that only I can turn it around, but I don't know where to start. Money? Education? My relationships with friends and Christina? My job? What is more important? I can't handle it all; I'm crushed by the weight. It's depressing me...sending me somewhere I don't want to go, and yet I feel powerless. My parents say I'm lazy. My doctor says I have ADD. Christina says there's nothing wrong with me. My friends are oblivious. I've been drinking a lot lately. I don't know if its out of bordom or if I'm using it to distract myself from reality. I hope I figure this out soon...
no more running from these masqueraders.
I believe that society will never dream like me."
I am frustrated by this feeling of being without control of my life. Year after year I endure these same thoughts. Constantly reacting to unforseen circumstances; compromising my dreams to pay for my failures. Can never get ahead of the game. Always strapped and endlessly stressed. I know that only I can turn it around, but I don't know where to start. Money? Education? My relationships with friends and Christina? My job? What is more important? I can't handle it all; I'm crushed by the weight. It's depressing me...sending me somewhere I don't want to go, and yet I feel powerless. My parents say I'm lazy. My doctor says I have ADD. Christina says there's nothing wrong with me. My friends are oblivious. I've been drinking a lot lately. I don't know if its out of bordom or if I'm using it to distract myself from reality. I hope I figure this out soon...