another day
I'm here. I will continue writing as much as possible this Lent to help myself and somehow get connected to others. I'll admit that right now I feel kinda down. It wasn't work, not really. Some bread didn't work out last time I worked and that always depresses me. I'd like to think that most of my work is successful and helps others. Ah heck, I'll just try again. Today was pretty light and most things came out alright. I just hope this doesn't mean that tomorrow will be unbearabley heavy in the load. I'll just have to get through it. God is my strength and I won't give in or break down. I love my job and that's enough to get me through any load.
Well what really is bumming me is that I found out someone I had hoped to see at the next Gale-kon probably won't be there. I had really wanted to see them again but now it seems I won't get the chance. It's sad. I won't be depressed forever but for now, I just want to grieve.
I've been thinking about connections. I'm talking about ones from person to person. I know that now a days things seem easy to connect with others who are even halfway across the world. We got things like Facebook and formspring to get to know others. It's just, a part of me doesn't feel like this is all real. What I'm getting at is how well do we really know someone just based on what a website or a message system says? How can that ever replace a personal experience meeting someone face to face, in the flesh? Yes, things like Facebook are useful and even now I'm using an internet resource to reach out. I don't deny there significance and the positive things they can produce. My only concern is the overreliance of said resources. I sometimes fear that we are growing apart from each other despite such abilities to connect. It's kinda ironic when one thinks about it. Tools to help have been actually hurting cause of the way they are being taken. I suppose it's human nature to take things to the extreme. Stories throughout the ages have been written on this nature. In a way it may become a duty of mine as a fellow writer to say something about it. Well, I am, sorta. There is a good Japanese film translated as "Pulse" which deals with this topic. There were several crappy Americanization of the film that have lost the message so i don't recommend them.
It was Ash Wed. yesterday. We went to service which was shorter than I'd have liked but what to do. My fiance and I went to a store afterwards for some stuff and we still had our ashes on us. Some woman who came off as very ignorant started bad mouthing us right there in the store in front of others. I really didn't notice her till my fiance said something and that she was scared. I comforted and reassured her safety with me and we went on our way. I'm a bit peeved that this type of thinking still exists. I know it does but it's different when one hears about it to actually experiencing it first hand. First time outside of college that I've been criticized for my religious beliefs. That woman looked about middle aged or so. To see that vehement resentment/hatred for a belief is just bad. Such ignorance and intolerance for others is something I can never stomach. I hope this doesn't happen again.
I want to weep over so many things. I won't though. I will look towards the future and focus on what God wants me to do. Look ahead, not behind. That's a good motto to have. Sorry this is such a downer. I was hoping to put something more positive. I'm sorry. If it means anything, I'm not giving up on others. No, I could never do that. Here's to a future where we are all together.
take care and stay golden,
- conquer your demon
break down your barricade
let's survive together - Shin Megami Tensei's "Devil Survivor"
Well what really is bumming me is that I found out someone I had hoped to see at the next Gale-kon probably won't be there. I had really wanted to see them again but now it seems I won't get the chance. It's sad. I won't be depressed forever but for now, I just want to grieve.
I've been thinking about connections. I'm talking about ones from person to person. I know that now a days things seem easy to connect with others who are even halfway across the world. We got things like Facebook and formspring to get to know others. It's just, a part of me doesn't feel like this is all real. What I'm getting at is how well do we really know someone just based on what a website or a message system says? How can that ever replace a personal experience meeting someone face to face, in the flesh? Yes, things like Facebook are useful and even now I'm using an internet resource to reach out. I don't deny there significance and the positive things they can produce. My only concern is the overreliance of said resources. I sometimes fear that we are growing apart from each other despite such abilities to connect. It's kinda ironic when one thinks about it. Tools to help have been actually hurting cause of the way they are being taken. I suppose it's human nature to take things to the extreme. Stories throughout the ages have been written on this nature. In a way it may become a duty of mine as a fellow writer to say something about it. Well, I am, sorta. There is a good Japanese film translated as "Pulse" which deals with this topic. There were several crappy Americanization of the film that have lost the message so i don't recommend them.
It was Ash Wed. yesterday. We went to service which was shorter than I'd have liked but what to do. My fiance and I went to a store afterwards for some stuff and we still had our ashes on us. Some woman who came off as very ignorant started bad mouthing us right there in the store in front of others. I really didn't notice her till my fiance said something and that she was scared. I comforted and reassured her safety with me and we went on our way. I'm a bit peeved that this type of thinking still exists. I know it does but it's different when one hears about it to actually experiencing it first hand. First time outside of college that I've been criticized for my religious beliefs. That woman looked about middle aged or so. To see that vehement resentment/hatred for a belief is just bad. Such ignorance and intolerance for others is something I can never stomach. I hope this doesn't happen again.
I want to weep over so many things. I won't though. I will look towards the future and focus on what God wants me to do. Look ahead, not behind. That's a good motto to have. Sorry this is such a downer. I was hoping to put something more positive. I'm sorry. If it means anything, I'm not giving up on others. No, I could never do that. Here's to a future where we are all together.
take care and stay golden,
- conquer your demon
break down your barricade
let's survive together - Shin Megami Tensei's "Devil Survivor"