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sooo....apparently when ben left he took a few of my C.D's ....including 1 that belongs to the library...now I have to pay the cost of the C.D .....I'm tired of all this...I really am ...my life was finally getting in order..then bobby left and everything just fucking went to shit....maybe because I stopped caring and my heart stopped beating? ....bleh....I dont know..bobby doesnt care, never gave a second thought to me..and yet I still cant bring myself to move on completely and forget about him,the other day I was with one of my friends and still broke down blubbering over him....I dont know what to do......I have to fight with my mom just to give the little $100 every 2 weeks so I can afford my damn cigarettes....I mean im falling apart here....and you think bobby cares? of course not... and why would he...because of our history? of the love we shared...no....its just me..survivng by myself once again..and im not doing it..im not..I will die before I take another one of these god damn days of fucking hell. Im done with it.