How I wish, How I wish you were here...
Well, You don't read this anymore, so why not use it to my advantage, and tell the world how I feel? You were my life, I loved every single thing about you, you made me feel special, but I didn't know until far too late. It was all me and my screw ups, that ended it, and I would die to take it all back. You didn't deserve it, and I knew it, but all I could think of was myself. Now I call you when I'm messed up, and have an excuse, and a blurred sense of reality, so it doesn't hurt so much. You tell me you don't even know if you still love me, and I understand, but I do question how you can fall out of love with someone. Maybe you never loved me at all? Sure, I'm lame because I still cry, and still miss you like it was all yesterday. That's why I lie, and tell you I was wrong about my feelings, and that I don't care. To be honest you were the best thing to ever happen to me, and losing you hurt far worse then I ever would of expected. So, I sit here, wondering... thinking, What would have been different if I wouldn't have been so stupid? I wish I could just forget, and move on, and be as heartless as I made myself out to be. But, even after a year of being half a country away from you I can't, I miss you, and I still love you, no matter if you beleive me or not. I hope you know how wonderful you are, and that you will never, EVER be forgotten.
Why can't I just hate everyone?
<3Angela
Why can't I just hate everyone?
<3Angela