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Apr 18, 2006 00:01

Oh MAhn, I was depressed as shit this morning. Hence the birth of my Western Mix on iTunes, composed of various country or country-esque songs. I managed to cheer up after my walk in the sunshine to work, listening to my music on shuffle.

Work today was odd, there were two parties, which made the place feel busy, however the front was consistantly rather bare. I don't know if it's the stress or change in sleeping pattern, but I have been more outrageous and immature than ever before lately. I need to calm down and improve my people skills, this is getting silly.

I hate sending important emails (for lack of other modes of contact), not knowing if they've been read. Or if they have, if they've been perceived and received in the way I meant them to be. Makes me nervous. And guilty.

Despite Ben's constant struggle to say no, I managed to convince him to pick me up from work, snare some togo food, and chill at my house. Any excuse to get Chaya & Sean together, I say. Hahah kidding.

I have been so gassy lately, good god. TMI, I know. Just wait until you're around me. I even managed to gross Jim out, which is a feat. Actually, in retrospect, I don't think it is. OH side note, I managed to complete a word jumble. Never have before. I feel smart? *cries*
Basically this year without schooling has stunted my cognitive growth, and I can tell I'm not going anywhere intellectually. I read at OMSI that in order to motivate cognitive growth one must keep up with puzzles and learning and such. Which I haven't been doing so much. Eileen pointed out to me that antipsychotics also dull your intelligence, which I've also felt. Ugh, it's dissapointing, frustrating and depressing.

Tomorrow is another Backspace night. It should be interesting because Stephy blew some of her paycheck on a GameCube (or is planning to??), and we've never played anything other than XBOX while there. Yeehaw, go team nerd!
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