Strange dreams
For the past 2 weeks, every night without fail I have had the most intense and awe-inspiring dreams of my life. A theme throughout all of them has been the choice between heading to the light / safety (which I took to mean heaven) or darkness, and hard times (which I took to mean earth). Each time ive turned away and gone back headfirst into the darkness, being filled with resolve like ive never felt before, not content to enter Heaven while Earth is still in the hands of so much evil. It's particularly strange because I dont believe in God at all, and find that every piece of information I come accross goes to strengthen that. Two days before I began having these dreams I sent out a prayer which asked that if God did exist, to make his presence known to me. If I knew "something" was out there, it would make my whole religious search and education much more interesting and worthwhile. Since then, ive dreamt about intense pain in my shoulder blades, which turned out to be the growth of wings (a pain I still feel when im awake sometimes, weirdly enough) spinning wheels of fire (which I later learned was the same dream an old apostle had, the wheels representing angels) and several dreams about tornados, in one case where the intense wind has me pinned against a rock and im helpless to move. when I think about giving up, this guy who was climbing up the rock looks at me and told me to "keep going!". so, taking his simple advice, I did. and when I reached the top I realized that I didnt want to leave the rock, where others were thinking about giving up too and I had the power to help them out. Every night its been dreams like this, and I couldnt be more inspired to keep learning.