If I Only Had A Heart
Before I get started with anything, might I just say that Ozma rocks my socks off
With that said, its been a year but sadness found me again. This month has been rough, period. With the mix of relationships gone sour and family ties / morality going out the window its been a month to remember and a struggle to get away from. Its been a few weeks since I last saw maddie, and true to form its getting easier to get over her when she's not around. Lately though, ive really been missing her a lot. I never really talked about her to my friends that much, but this girl was just spectacular. She's so wonderful and rare that its been a bitch getting over the fact that she just plain doesn't like me.
In the family realm, my parents have been expressing doubts they have in me, which is a first. Not to say they havnt chastised for bad grades or bad deeds before, but they certainly have never come flat out and said "I dont think you can make it after highschool" the way they did in so many words the other day. My initial response is "you dont know your son, name one thing ive put my mind to and not accomplished" but we're still at a standstill and of all the things that are going on right now, thats whats got me down the most. and this depression, its different than anything ive felt before. there's such an extreme balance of happiness and sadness that i'll go through feeling extremes multiple times a day. horemones? probably.
Ive gotten closer to marc these past few weeks, and I see why so many people love this kid. Tony as well, I feel really great around everybody. Also, Ive started to find a huge amount of joy in doing absolutly anything. From mowing the lawn, to doing homework, to cooking. And I think I have nelson to thank for that.
Our film came out rather bad in terms of technical quality, so we're having to re-shoot it this weekend. If you would like to help out, we have seven skits that need casting / technical support. Let me know.
With that said, its been a year but sadness found me again. This month has been rough, period. With the mix of relationships gone sour and family ties / morality going out the window its been a month to remember and a struggle to get away from. Its been a few weeks since I last saw maddie, and true to form its getting easier to get over her when she's not around. Lately though, ive really been missing her a lot. I never really talked about her to my friends that much, but this girl was just spectacular. She's so wonderful and rare that its been a bitch getting over the fact that she just plain doesn't like me.
In the family realm, my parents have been expressing doubts they have in me, which is a first. Not to say they havnt chastised for bad grades or bad deeds before, but they certainly have never come flat out and said "I dont think you can make it after highschool" the way they did in so many words the other day. My initial response is "you dont know your son, name one thing ive put my mind to and not accomplished" but we're still at a standstill and of all the things that are going on right now, thats whats got me down the most. and this depression, its different than anything ive felt before. there's such an extreme balance of happiness and sadness that i'll go through feeling extremes multiple times a day. horemones? probably.
Ive gotten closer to marc these past few weeks, and I see why so many people love this kid. Tony as well, I feel really great around everybody. Also, Ive started to find a huge amount of joy in doing absolutly anything. From mowing the lawn, to doing homework, to cooking. And I think I have nelson to thank for that.
Our film came out rather bad in terms of technical quality, so we're having to re-shoot it this weekend. If you would like to help out, we have seven skits that need casting / technical support. Let me know.