Still save us all
Things I beleive im good at
-Being a friend
-Keeping calm under stress
-Being the strong one emotionally
-Writting
-Improv
-Reading people
-Analyzing and understanding a situation ("being down to earth")
-Being a fair leader (I used to think this one was bullshit, but im starting to beleive ive inspired people to take certain action, and that some people look up to me in this respect)
-Games (in the sense that i can pick up almost anything, and learn it very quickly)
-Running
Things I beleive im bad at
-Being a son
I want to take some time on this one. I have a unique relationship with my family, in that we all know eachother's darkest secrets and saving graces. We're about as close and affectionate as a family can get. My dad used to check my email, and since that happend ive never trusted him again. Ive stopped talking to him about anything, i dont even go into detail telling him how my day was. I dont talk to my mom that much about personal issues anymore, because I know she doesnt understand what im going through or how I approach situations. On days like today when i went to the NAHS induction without them, i could see in my mom's eyes that it was killing her to see me going out this way on my last year at home. Its like i dont even remember the little boy i was, and even in the past 4 years alone ive become somebody completely different, who cant cry even when his own dog dies, or when he knows he's hurting the people he cares about most.
-Talking to people
-Expressing ideas / opinions in group conversation
-Letting go
-Being constant in my opinions (which at this age, I find to be quite healthy)
Ive been worried about college. The ones I want to go to my family cant afford, and I cant apply to any other schools until my SAT comes in. im nervous as hell
Tonight was the NAHS induction. Have you ever been around a certain group / and / or / someone that you didnt quite feel like yourself around? thats the feeling I get with the art group. i dont have really anything to offer them as far as artistic talent, and im not good friends with anyone there save for dr. jones, but they inducted me anyway as part of the group. It meant a lot.
There's a possibility i might be able to go to chicago on the 19th to see Nobuo Uematsu perform a once in a lifetime show.
I can, with all honesty, say that ive never felt as strongly an adoration for anybody the way i do for maddie. Its like im with erin around her, and i love the way she makes me feel, and the way we make eachother feel when we're together. Its all i can do to keep from just grabbing her and giving her a kiss, maybe you know the feeling. I know im not alone when I say how strongly i feel about this girl, and this is one situation I dont know how to handle. I suppose we leave it to the girl, though it hardly seems fair
Wayne let me borrow his H.P. Lovecraft book, and ive found a new favorite author. the way this man writes, and the stories he tells you with awe are unlike anything ive read before, and when i write papers for english or whatever, i find myself thinking in terms of lovecraft's wide vocabulary and literary flare. Wayne, wherever you are, thank you.
For my birthday my family took me out to dinner at sushi sams (OF COURSE!) and when i was done opening presents, my mom hands me this card. i open it, and inside is the most beautiful message ive ever read; the fact that it was directed at me only made it harder not to cry. inside the card was also a cutout of a genius looking video camera, and my dad casually says "its on the way". Family is the best thing a man could ever have going for him, and i dont think i'll ever realize how thankfull i should be at the one i have.
Im really proud of all my friends. Sean and James write truely spectacular peices of music. doug's stories are only getting better (which, considering how great the first one he wrote was, is saying a lot). Conr takes a peice of trash (quite literally) and turns it into something magnificent and thought provoking. Amanda's gotten into college, with more acceptance letters waiting to reach her house. Alex has found someone who makes her happy, as has tony. These are the people i'll tell my children and grandchildren about. about how my pal doug taught me what it meant to be a true friend, and how Caitlin taught me everything i'll ever need to know about loveing someone, and all the joy and pain it can cause you.
Things that need doing this weekend
-Hang out with Holly (If, of course, ms. raines remembers)
-Take Aleah to the melting pot, FINALLY
-Introduce Maddie to "Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon"
-Find Adobe Premier and begin work on film
-Call VP of production at Funimation and get an internship
-Being a friend
-Keeping calm under stress
-Being the strong one emotionally
-Writting
-Improv
-Reading people
-Analyzing and understanding a situation ("being down to earth")
-Being a fair leader (I used to think this one was bullshit, but im starting to beleive ive inspired people to take certain action, and that some people look up to me in this respect)
-Games (in the sense that i can pick up almost anything, and learn it very quickly)
-Running
Things I beleive im bad at
-Being a son
I want to take some time on this one. I have a unique relationship with my family, in that we all know eachother's darkest secrets and saving graces. We're about as close and affectionate as a family can get. My dad used to check my email, and since that happend ive never trusted him again. Ive stopped talking to him about anything, i dont even go into detail telling him how my day was. I dont talk to my mom that much about personal issues anymore, because I know she doesnt understand what im going through or how I approach situations. On days like today when i went to the NAHS induction without them, i could see in my mom's eyes that it was killing her to see me going out this way on my last year at home. Its like i dont even remember the little boy i was, and even in the past 4 years alone ive become somebody completely different, who cant cry even when his own dog dies, or when he knows he's hurting the people he cares about most.
-Talking to people
-Expressing ideas / opinions in group conversation
-Letting go
-Being constant in my opinions (which at this age, I find to be quite healthy)
Ive been worried about college. The ones I want to go to my family cant afford, and I cant apply to any other schools until my SAT comes in. im nervous as hell
Tonight was the NAHS induction. Have you ever been around a certain group / and / or / someone that you didnt quite feel like yourself around? thats the feeling I get with the art group. i dont have really anything to offer them as far as artistic talent, and im not good friends with anyone there save for dr. jones, but they inducted me anyway as part of the group. It meant a lot.
There's a possibility i might be able to go to chicago on the 19th to see Nobuo Uematsu perform a once in a lifetime show.
I can, with all honesty, say that ive never felt as strongly an adoration for anybody the way i do for maddie. Its like im with erin around her, and i love the way she makes me feel, and the way we make eachother feel when we're together. Its all i can do to keep from just grabbing her and giving her a kiss, maybe you know the feeling. I know im not alone when I say how strongly i feel about this girl, and this is one situation I dont know how to handle. I suppose we leave it to the girl, though it hardly seems fair
Wayne let me borrow his H.P. Lovecraft book, and ive found a new favorite author. the way this man writes, and the stories he tells you with awe are unlike anything ive read before, and when i write papers for english or whatever, i find myself thinking in terms of lovecraft's wide vocabulary and literary flare. Wayne, wherever you are, thank you.
For my birthday my family took me out to dinner at sushi sams (OF COURSE!) and when i was done opening presents, my mom hands me this card. i open it, and inside is the most beautiful message ive ever read; the fact that it was directed at me only made it harder not to cry. inside the card was also a cutout of a genius looking video camera, and my dad casually says "its on the way". Family is the best thing a man could ever have going for him, and i dont think i'll ever realize how thankfull i should be at the one i have.
Im really proud of all my friends. Sean and James write truely spectacular peices of music. doug's stories are only getting better (which, considering how great the first one he wrote was, is saying a lot). Conr takes a peice of trash (quite literally) and turns it into something magnificent and thought provoking. Amanda's gotten into college, with more acceptance letters waiting to reach her house. Alex has found someone who makes her happy, as has tony. These are the people i'll tell my children and grandchildren about. about how my pal doug taught me what it meant to be a true friend, and how Caitlin taught me everything i'll ever need to know about loveing someone, and all the joy and pain it can cause you.
Things that need doing this weekend
-Hang out with Holly (If, of course, ms. raines remembers)
-Take Aleah to the melting pot, FINALLY
-Introduce Maddie to "Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon"
-Find Adobe Premier and begin work on film
-Call VP of production at Funimation and get an internship