A Breakdown Is Unavoidable
I woke up at 5am and had a total panic attack. It was idiotic in every way. I just began to stress about the move and my weekend trip to see my grandma and grandpa. I hate feeling stressed out like that. It seems like it always happens at night time! When I'm left alone and my mind begins to wander. Gah! I hate it! So I decided that I'd start packing today sense I won't have much time in the next few days. Well, wouldn't you know it! I found two library books that I know are at least three months over due! *screams at myself* I am such a dope! So now I will have to take care of that as well.
I need a new pair of pants. I've been trying to wait till I get to Washington, but I can't wait any longer. I'll go get some tomorrow ASAP.
*sigh* this packing thing is not going as well as I'd like. Perhaps I should just wait till Sunday/Monday.....but that would be so last min! I can't do that!
*breath in and out. Breath in and out* I just feel so jumpy about it all. I think the whole move is finally beginning to sink in. In less then a week I will be tossed in a new world so to speak. Living with my dad again *shoot me now*, living with my mom once more *so stressful*, and my oldest younger brother *little video game junkie*....I just don't think I want to do it at all! In fact, I know I don't want to! Oh, but it will be all new....and everything will be like a new adventure at first.....Plus I'll have my Holly and Mr Tango back *my awesome dogs*.
I need to stop freaking out and just do one of two things:
1. Deal with the fact that everything in my life will change for good in less then a week
2. Just bottle up everything and shove it in the back of my mind; open it later and possibly have a total breakdown.
Well, seeing as I don't want to stress right now, I think I'll pick option number 2. After all, Why worry now when you can worry later?
I need a new pair of pants. I've been trying to wait till I get to Washington, but I can't wait any longer. I'll go get some tomorrow ASAP.
*sigh* this packing thing is not going as well as I'd like. Perhaps I should just wait till Sunday/Monday.....but that would be so last min! I can't do that!
*breath in and out. Breath in and out* I just feel so jumpy about it all. I think the whole move is finally beginning to sink in. In less then a week I will be tossed in a new world so to speak. Living with my dad again *shoot me now*, living with my mom once more *so stressful*, and my oldest younger brother *little video game junkie*....I just don't think I want to do it at all! In fact, I know I don't want to! Oh, but it will be all new....and everything will be like a new adventure at first.....Plus I'll have my Holly and Mr Tango back *my awesome dogs*.
I need to stop freaking out and just do one of two things:
1. Deal with the fact that everything in my life will change for good in less then a week
2. Just bottle up everything and shove it in the back of my mind; open it later and possibly have a total breakdown.
Well, seeing as I don't want to stress right now, I think I'll pick option number 2. After all, Why worry now when you can worry later?