I'm not giving up, I'm making your love, this city's made us crazy and we must get out

[willywannabite]

I watched her from behind a brush that was seperatin' me from the sand. Guess she was done with Dawn already - hysterical bit she was and I never even realized how close her and Harry were. Odd that but I havent' been around, I wouldn't know. But, I do know who Dawn is and I know who Harry is and I guess ... well, I just won't get into that. Least

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[wickedbuff]

I looked down at him as he pushed strands of blonde hair out of my face his fingers lingering there for a second. See, now why was he being all cute and stuff? God, he would probably kill me if I said that outloud since he was supposed to be a big evil scary guy or whatever. He didn't scare me. Not anymore. Although this is my life so who knows? Tomorrow could be a different story altogether.

"I don't know." I grinned down at him a little bit. "It doesn't really belong to me. I was kind of living there because Faith and Harry said I could." I shrugged. Maybe I should have tried harder to find my own place and somehow found another job so I could afford an apartment on my own instead of having to rely on Faith for everything. She just made it really easy.

"But I guess, I mean....we could still be roomies. Cordy offered me a job which I'm hoping will still be waiting for me in LA when I get back. Job means I could pay rent, we could get an apartment and be...roomies."

We didn't rush into anything. Wait. We'd already passed the rushing. The rushing that took a couple of hours to get out of our systems. Ooops?

[willywannabite]

Of course it didn't belong to her. It belonged to Harry and I would imagine ... right, Faith. But, Harry said that I could live there. I wondered if I should say that and then not so much because it just popped out. "Well, I've talked to Harry about it, I don't think he minds, really," I said and watched her face. Hopefully she wouldn't ask anymore questions other than that. I shook my head with a small smile on my face when she told me that we could get an apartment together in LA, and be roomies. More than that!

Oh yes. Definately more than just roomies. She knew that too.

"Right. We'll get a one bedroom and be roomies, eh?"

Maybe that was jumping in too deep? "Nah," I recovered - then wondered why I was. What the bloody hell was wrong with me? "We'll get a two ... or ... well, to be quite honest, something could change. We both knew how testy you are," I teased with a grin on my face.

"But, gettin' a job would be nice - for me ... I think I need to get away from the Wolfram and Hart buildin'. Nothin' but bad, pet, nothin' but bad and ..." I was goin' to add in somethin' about Angel, but I decided against it.

"I just need a change."

[wickedbuff]

I pouted at him a little bit. Testy? I wasn't...well okay, maybe sometimes I was a little bit testy but only because he pissed me off alot. How was that my fault?

"You're going to get a job?" I quirked an eyebrow in his direction. "A job that doesn't entail stealing or cheating or gambling or lying? I'll believe that when I see it. And if it involves kittens please never tell me about it."

I had a job with Cordelia, maybe she would need another vampire with a soul around to help now that Angel sold out to an evil law firm. Then again, I'd done the office romances before and they never ended well. But if we were really going to be roomates he was going to have to chip in too.

"Maybe we can just keep the beach house."

[willywannabite]

She then repeated me gettin' a job. I was mostly kiddin', I think, but ... what else was I goin' to do? Personally, I didn't want to lounge about with Angel and as much fun as it was gettin' on his nerves, I'd rather be gettin' on with somethin' else ... someone else so I guess I had to do somethin' to help the Slayer out considerin' she doesn't mind me livin' with her.

Funny how things change.

"Maybe not, but I figure I should ... I dunno. I'd work at a bar or the sort, be able to get pissed everynight. Least the kitchen would be fully stocked with Jack all the time," I nodded and sighed, lookin' up at her.

"Think we could. Don't think Harry would mind all that much," I told her. "Think Angel would be relieved also that I wasn't goin' to be around him all the time, not that I have been lately .. just ..." I trailed off and shrugged.

[wickedbuff]

Work at a bar? Well, I guess that was something and it would help pay the rent. Now that we really had to worry about that because I was pretty sure Harry wasn't kicking me out of the beach house anytime soon. And if he tried I could threaten to stake him. I'm kidding! Maybe. I still hadn't seen Harry for myself but I'm lead to believe that he's not of the evil variety.

The smile on my face quickly faded when Spike just had to bring up Angel again. Great. And jealousy once again rears it's ugly head. It's funny to think about how possessive I used to be of Angel. I suppose I still am in some ways because in alot of ways he'll always be mine first but lately it was bothering me alot more that Spike seemed to be his first. Which was so not true. And why did I even care?

Well, I guess that was obvious.

Spike's hands strayed to my hips and I quickly pushed them back down to the sand, effectively pinning him down under my small weight. "What's the story with you and Angel? Is there something you want to tell me, Spike?"

[willywannabite]

She seemed to be alright with me gettin' a job. 'Sides, it would be nice to have money and not have to steal it. Wait, what was I sayin'!? I could steal it all I want but ... things were different now. Had been for a while and I guess I could just ... be a civil man ... monster. All I would be anyway. Not quite a man, not a monster. Wasn't sure what I was at this point. Never really was. Except when I was evil. Or William. Those days were gone now and now it was just ... this.

Kinda liked it. Now anyway.

I grinned when she pinned me down. She wanted another go? I tilted my chin up to look at her but from the look, that wasn't what this was. What did I do now?

"The ... what, love?" I smiled shyly and looked away before lookin' back up at her again. "There is no story and nothin' to tell you." Which was the truth because honestly, I had no idea what she was talkin' about. I tried movin' my hands back up to her hips, but she quickly pushed them back down again.

"Okay, what is this?" I asked her when I realized that I wasn't goin' anywhere for a while. Truth was, I could move if I really wanted to but since I'm likin' where she was, I decided against it.

"Don't believe I know what you're talkin' about, pet."

[wickedbuff]

"Has anyone ever told you you're a crappy liar?" I asked him and even though it was a little funny I wasn't smiling. I was still annoyed that he hadn't bothered to come and find me in Rome, or at least hadn't made his presence known. Instead he'd stalked me around and saw me with the Immortal and decided that it was in my best interest not to tell me that he was back from the grave.

He said it was for me, but I knew the truth. There was something between him and Angel that I really couldn't break down or understand despite the fact that they were mine first. I didn't care how badly Angel wanted to argue that they were eachother's first. They were evil then, it doesn't count.

"I'm talking about you and Angel. I mean, last time I checked you hated eachother's guts and now you're practically glued to his hip." I arched an eyebrow in his direction. Normally I would say that there was no way in hell but with the way Angel had been acting lately re: Harry I wasn't sure what to think about either one of them.

Maybe I should just grab Faith and run off somewhere and let them all wander about us. Actually, no. They would probably like that.

[willywannabite]

I'm not! I didn't think I was a crappy liar - well when I wanted to be a good one that was. And this? This was all stupid ninny crap! Why was she askin' me about all of this? Had no idea why, except for the fact that Angel and I ... well. We'd always be connected in a way that no one would ever understand. Just like I am with Dru and ... even Darla - in a way. But, they weren't here right now were they? No. It was Angel. Just like she's connected with her sister, I was connected with him and even though we hate eachothers guts (or he just hates mine) we were in fact, still family and we were together.

That's how it always was, and always will be.

"I urge you to take that back, little girl," I said and raised my eyebrow. "I am not now, nor ever will be glued to that wankers hip!" I was not.

I sighed and laid back. She wasn't gettin' off of me anytime soon and she wasn't goin' to let this go anytime soon. I'd just stay away from him. And stop talkin' about him.

My God, it does seem that I have a thing for him, but that was only one time -- or so he says and that was totally different than this!

"He's ..." I sighed and finally looked up at her.

"No. This is stupid and I'm not glued to his hip and for the record? I still do hate him."