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[flytothe_end]

rather than a muddled post,
a real one:
life isn't as bad as i make it out to be,
as love isn't everything and i can live
without it if it's necessary.
i just don't want it to be.
it's going to be a while before
i feel comfortable enough to let
someone in the way i did with him.
if i'm being honest,
he's the only person i ever
let in that much.
in that extent.
with..er..someone else,
i was too afraid of showing who i was.
or maybe i didn't understand it enough to.
but that insecurity has lessened because of him.
it's still hard.
but i'm trying.
i swear to god,
i'm trying.
i think.