random unrelated thoughts of mine
the end of this year is summing up WAY to quickly and it saddens me.
on the other hand its pretty damn tight.
i must say i have a very hot boyfriend. he's really quite wonderful. i know it hasn't been all that long but i can still tell saying goodbye is not gonna be fun. i knew this going in but the nearing of the end of high school is starting to worry me. im gonna miss him like crazy. and it sux. but im just gonna be happy for now. cuz he makes me happy. =)
i just got all this information about stanford and admit weekend is coming up. unfortunately due to the musical i can only go for part of the fesitivities. i have to miss the dance presentation, the hip hop archives thingy, a music concert and the end partay/dance...and u know i love to dance! so that kinda sux. but yeah it looks tight.
essays for votto are impossible. at least that what i keep telling myself so i don't get mad when i don't do all that well on them.
i really wanna go shopping.
some people really confuse me and thus irritate me and thus make me wanna like throw a shoe at them and be like "WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?!?" ...or something. ok...i still care for him but i really could kill him. like REALLY. yet somehow, as it always was, i can't stay mad at him. so i guess i'll just shut up and let it be. i just can't understand how he could be so retarded and just lie about how he felt for such a long time and then come out with this shit out of the clear blue sky. its one thing to do damage to me if it helps you. i've obviously lived. but to do damage to me AND yourself for god knows what reason is just depressing and stupid. i feel like with as much as we shared the least he could do is be honest with me. i've tried to just ignore this for a while but it shocked the hell out of me and makes me pretty angry so yeah im venting a bit. i can't even talk to him about it b/c im pretty damn sure he doesn't wanna talk to me and im really done trying to be his friend when he doesn't want anything to do with me. so im talking to my live journal. lol. its like im pretty over this shit but i can't help wanting to know WHY?!?!?
but thats just my personality of always wanting an answer to everything in life...ya know like math problems. they always have an answer. none of this subjective crap. tis why i like math. life should be like math. ok i suppose that would be boring but still. i'd be content. haha.
OMG I AM SO HAPPY cuz everwood is back on! yes! its like the only show i watch religiously. im watching it right now! i know im such a dork. =P
its raining. and i like it. but i'd like my darling to cuddle with to complete the happiness. that would be heaven.
have a good night everyone.
on the other hand its pretty damn tight.
i must say i have a very hot boyfriend. he's really quite wonderful. i know it hasn't been all that long but i can still tell saying goodbye is not gonna be fun. i knew this going in but the nearing of the end of high school is starting to worry me. im gonna miss him like crazy. and it sux. but im just gonna be happy for now. cuz he makes me happy. =)
i just got all this information about stanford and admit weekend is coming up. unfortunately due to the musical i can only go for part of the fesitivities. i have to miss the dance presentation, the hip hop archives thingy, a music concert and the end partay/dance...and u know i love to dance! so that kinda sux. but yeah it looks tight.
essays for votto are impossible. at least that what i keep telling myself so i don't get mad when i don't do all that well on them.
i really wanna go shopping.
some people really confuse me and thus irritate me and thus make me wanna like throw a shoe at them and be like "WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?!?" ...or something. ok...i still care for him but i really could kill him. like REALLY. yet somehow, as it always was, i can't stay mad at him. so i guess i'll just shut up and let it be. i just can't understand how he could be so retarded and just lie about how he felt for such a long time and then come out with this shit out of the clear blue sky. its one thing to do damage to me if it helps you. i've obviously lived. but to do damage to me AND yourself for god knows what reason is just depressing and stupid. i feel like with as much as we shared the least he could do is be honest with me. i've tried to just ignore this for a while but it shocked the hell out of me and makes me pretty angry so yeah im venting a bit. i can't even talk to him about it b/c im pretty damn sure he doesn't wanna talk to me and im really done trying to be his friend when he doesn't want anything to do with me. so im talking to my live journal. lol. its like im pretty over this shit but i can't help wanting to know WHY?!?!?
but thats just my personality of always wanting an answer to everything in life...ya know like math problems. they always have an answer. none of this subjective crap. tis why i like math. life should be like math. ok i suppose that would be boring but still. i'd be content. haha.
OMG I AM SO HAPPY cuz everwood is back on! yes! its like the only show i watch religiously. im watching it right now! i know im such a dork. =P
its raining. and i like it. but i'd like my darling to cuddle with to complete the happiness. that would be heaven.
have a good night everyone.