GrEaT
well the weekend is over friends.
but it was a GREAT one. The party friday was kickin even though i think i slept through most of it- but hey thats how i roll.
Then i got to spend all weekend with Andy and his entire family in Pittsburgh. It was so much fun. i love them so much and they love me so much. I already feel as if i'm part of the family. His sister told me she was really upset when we broke up. And i got called Sharon (Andy's half mexican sister-in-law) like four times. While i'm super thrilled and high off this satisfiying trip with him, i'm also scared out of my mind because i love him and his family so much but what if we break up again? It's like everyone there already expects us to get married one day soon. Don't get me wrong, i want to very badly, but the last time that kind of pressure was put on us, we broke up. I guess i'm just scared he'll stop wanting me again like last time. I don't ever want to break up again, but who knows what will happen. ahhh i just hate being unsure. I hate the fact that i'm so scared of losing him again so much because i know it would devestate me. He has so much of me.
Anyway.
thats just been on my mind lately, but i don't want to tell him because i feel like talking about marriage so much right now when we're young will only hurt us.
by the way-
does everyone know Mr. Dean's artwork is on billboards all around the detriot metro area for 1800 Tiquila? It's awesome, i saw one today coming home from Pitt. He's even featured on the website. Dean is so cool.
but it was a GREAT one. The party friday was kickin even though i think i slept through most of it- but hey thats how i roll.
Then i got to spend all weekend with Andy and his entire family in Pittsburgh. It was so much fun. i love them so much and they love me so much. I already feel as if i'm part of the family. His sister told me she was really upset when we broke up. And i got called Sharon (Andy's half mexican sister-in-law) like four times. While i'm super thrilled and high off this satisfiying trip with him, i'm also scared out of my mind because i love him and his family so much but what if we break up again? It's like everyone there already expects us to get married one day soon. Don't get me wrong, i want to very badly, but the last time that kind of pressure was put on us, we broke up. I guess i'm just scared he'll stop wanting me again like last time. I don't ever want to break up again, but who knows what will happen. ahhh i just hate being unsure. I hate the fact that i'm so scared of losing him again so much because i know it would devestate me. He has so much of me.
Anyway.
thats just been on my mind lately, but i don't want to tell him because i feel like talking about marriage so much right now when we're young will only hurt us.
by the way-
does everyone know Mr. Dean's artwork is on billboards all around the detriot metro area for 1800 Tiquila? It's awesome, i saw one today coming home from Pitt. He's even featured on the website. Dean is so cool.