follow through

May 22, 2006 01:59

Every single choice we make, large or small, can affect even the smallest detail of our lives. Some choices are passed down through parents or family. Some are conscious. Some are made without knowing the full extent of what will result. I could go as far as saying most are accidental. Some regretted, some lucky, some with a lot of consideration and many without so much as a thought.

I’m talking about life changes. At what point did you decide what your future would entail? I can remember as far back as second grade deciding on my career as a country singer. I can’t sing now, nor have I ever had the capabilities to do such. This particular decision made prior to any knowledge of what the future holds as actually attainable. Or is the sky really the limit? At what moment in time do the decisions you make line up with how your life unfolds? Do the small choices collect together to make up who you are? And what is the appropriate action to unravel the past’s decisions, or is there?

Is my life story already written and my purpose is to simply show up everyday? Or is every moment a different path down a road I pave for myself? When do dreams cross over to the point of reality? When do your silent wishes reveal themselves to be true? At what point does the person you spent time with today become just a person you used to know? At the end of the road is it all one big blur of past, present, future? Or is there a definitive line between the three?

What I decide to do tomorrow will ultimately act as a stepping stone to the rest of my life. We live in a world where people are more inclined to look upon the past. We choose to live our lives with no regrets. A statement very centered around what we’ve done, instead of what lies ahead. I could spend the rest of my twenties basking in the memories of what has made me who I am today. So in a sense am I ever really growing--or am I simply adding layers to the person I was?

What would a life look like that was centered around the future? Every action I took would serve a purpose. Every decision I made would contribute to my success or failure. If you are constantly glancing back you are bound to stumble at some point in your life. Are you the type of person who measures success based on how far you’ve come? Or how much closer you are to where you want to be?

Every night that we go to sleep is one more opportunity to clean our slate. Tomorrow you could wake up and unconsciously go through the motions of the day and find yourself back in bed for the night with a pretty uneventful completely normal day. Or you could wake up and consciously be aware that every move you make will somehow in some way result in a life change. Maybe not that day, or even a month from now-possibly years gone by without even a ripple, but one day you wake up unhappy wondering at what point you went wrong. And then you’re hit with the startling reality... could that day have been the day that changed the rest of your life?
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