Fireside: Why you chose this path
This week has been crazy, absolutly crazy but I figured out tonight why I'm here.
For those who don't know Greek recuitment is coming up and pretty much that means that us sorority girls have a boot camp of sorts to get ready. I have in the last year had my doubts about joining a sorority but I knew that if I stuck with it suddenly I would see a "light" and I would know why I've put my self through this and I think for the first time since I pledged I've seen a glimmer of hope.
This week has been insane and I have said a hundred times over that I didnt want this but living in the house and being with these wonderful women has really taken an effect on me in the last couple of days.
Now tonight we had a fireside with the topic "why i chose this path" and the more I think about it the more I relieze why I did.
I thought at the beginning of senior year that I knew what was going to happen word for word. I was going to do the shows and we were all going to have leads and it was going to be fabulous in every shape and form and when it was all said and done I would be going off to college on the East Coast and i would do theatre there and I would love it. Heres the thing. I was wrong. I did drama and it was not fabulous, hell it wasnt even fun. I didnt get into any east coast schools. Most likly as a result of not spending enough time on my applications which was probably a result of doing theatre. And that killed me. It was everything I was everything I knew how to do and to this day the fact i wasnt cast in Godspell is a personal attack on who I am because at the time I didnt know how to do anything else or be anyone else.
So I chose CSU, I didnt have much of a choice. It was the only school I applied to that accepted me. With that knowledge and without drama my world came crashing down on me in every way.
It was a good thing that I went to CSU. I love it here, I love my classes and I love the people and I love my sorority sisters and it took tonight to relieze that I do love them.
The night started with practicing songs for preference, the final night of recruitment. We sing one song tghat gives me chills everytime I here it. Its called these old walls and absolutly beautiful. The other song we practed is one that we do during candel lighting.
Candle Lighting is when a girl gets a lavalier (necklace), a promise ring, or an engagement ring. And tonight we are singing this song and we sang it like ten times and suddenly out of no where appears a candle with a beautiful ring on it and it goes around 3 times to show that it is an enagement ring and it was so amazing. I can't wait until I get to have a candle lighting because it was so beautiful and so amazing.
My point is we did the fireside and I know that I joined Tri-Delta because I lost everything I knew at the end of senior year and i lost my family of friends. I didnt feel right in the theatre any more and I do feel right in the tri-Delta house. No one judges me and theres all ways a shoulder to cry on or an ear to talk off and people who genuinly listen to me and care about me. I feel closer to these girls tonight more thne i ever have and I know that I made the right decision. I told Nikki tonight that she was the reason I chose tri-delta and I thought she was gonna cry because it ment so much to her. And the thing is that she really is the reason, she talked theatre with me and for the first time since I looked at the cast list for godspell I felt like I really belonged somewhere.
Moral of the story is I know that not that I want to sign off on my non-tridelta friends. But that I feel like I have a home, a real home for the first time in a long time and I know everyone here cares about me and will listen to me when I need them and laugh with me when I'm happy and when i get engaged I cannot wait to share it with my sisters in such a special way.
For those who don't know Greek recuitment is coming up and pretty much that means that us sorority girls have a boot camp of sorts to get ready. I have in the last year had my doubts about joining a sorority but I knew that if I stuck with it suddenly I would see a "light" and I would know why I've put my self through this and I think for the first time since I pledged I've seen a glimmer of hope.
This week has been insane and I have said a hundred times over that I didnt want this but living in the house and being with these wonderful women has really taken an effect on me in the last couple of days.
Now tonight we had a fireside with the topic "why i chose this path" and the more I think about it the more I relieze why I did.
I thought at the beginning of senior year that I knew what was going to happen word for word. I was going to do the shows and we were all going to have leads and it was going to be fabulous in every shape and form and when it was all said and done I would be going off to college on the East Coast and i would do theatre there and I would love it. Heres the thing. I was wrong. I did drama and it was not fabulous, hell it wasnt even fun. I didnt get into any east coast schools. Most likly as a result of not spending enough time on my applications which was probably a result of doing theatre. And that killed me. It was everything I was everything I knew how to do and to this day the fact i wasnt cast in Godspell is a personal attack on who I am because at the time I didnt know how to do anything else or be anyone else.
So I chose CSU, I didnt have much of a choice. It was the only school I applied to that accepted me. With that knowledge and without drama my world came crashing down on me in every way.
It was a good thing that I went to CSU. I love it here, I love my classes and I love the people and I love my sorority sisters and it took tonight to relieze that I do love them.
The night started with practicing songs for preference, the final night of recruitment. We sing one song tghat gives me chills everytime I here it. Its called these old walls and absolutly beautiful. The other song we practed is one that we do during candel lighting.
Candle Lighting is when a girl gets a lavalier (necklace), a promise ring, or an engagement ring. And tonight we are singing this song and we sang it like ten times and suddenly out of no where appears a candle with a beautiful ring on it and it goes around 3 times to show that it is an enagement ring and it was so amazing. I can't wait until I get to have a candle lighting because it was so beautiful and so amazing.
My point is we did the fireside and I know that I joined Tri-Delta because I lost everything I knew at the end of senior year and i lost my family of friends. I didnt feel right in the theatre any more and I do feel right in the tri-Delta house. No one judges me and theres all ways a shoulder to cry on or an ear to talk off and people who genuinly listen to me and care about me. I feel closer to these girls tonight more thne i ever have and I know that I made the right decision. I told Nikki tonight that she was the reason I chose tri-delta and I thought she was gonna cry because it ment so much to her. And the thing is that she really is the reason, she talked theatre with me and for the first time since I looked at the cast list for godspell I felt like I really belonged somewhere.
Moral of the story is I know that not that I want to sign off on my non-tridelta friends. But that I feel like I have a home, a real home for the first time in a long time and I know everyone here cares about me and will listen to me when I need them and laugh with me when I'm happy and when i get engaged I cannot wait to share it with my sisters in such a special way.