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I wish someone was online to talk to, just so I had someone to talk to. But thats okay. Since nobody is online, I will actually write what's on my mind, which is probably why I want someone to talk to. So that I don't have to think about this:
I hugged Tian jun extra long and good tonight. It was a really good hug. He reciprocated the sincerity of the hug very nicely. It really was a good hug.
And its not that I don't want to think about the hug. Thinking about great hugs is great.
I don't regret not staying with Tian jun. Because we couldn't have been together with what he was going through. He had to figure stuff out. And when I started liking him, he was still okay. But then when things stopped being okay with him and when he started "freaking out," things got too serious and he wasn't himself anymore, so I didn't like him as much. You know. Because he wasn't Tian jun. He was sad Tian jun zombie man. Sort of. Anyways, not important. Now he has his shit together. And he seems happy. And I can't tell if the way I feel about him is just that I'm happy that he's my friend because he's a good person. The kind of person who doesn't try to prove themself to other people because he doesn't need to. He's a good person and he knows it and knows that if you're good, too, you'll figure out that he's good. I don't know. But maybe I still have romantic-like feelings for him. You know? But anyways, I hope none of my friends who know him will read this and mention it to him. Because I wouldn't like for that to happen.
I hugged Tian jun extra long and good tonight. It was a really good hug. He reciprocated the sincerity of the hug very nicely. It really was a good hug.
And its not that I don't want to think about the hug. Thinking about great hugs is great.
I don't regret not staying with Tian jun. Because we couldn't have been together with what he was going through. He had to figure stuff out. And when I started liking him, he was still okay. But then when things stopped being okay with him and when he started "freaking out," things got too serious and he wasn't himself anymore, so I didn't like him as much. You know. Because he wasn't Tian jun. He was sad Tian jun zombie man. Sort of. Anyways, not important. Now he has his shit together. And he seems happy. And I can't tell if the way I feel about him is just that I'm happy that he's my friend because he's a good person. The kind of person who doesn't try to prove themself to other people because he doesn't need to. He's a good person and he knows it and knows that if you're good, too, you'll figure out that he's good. I don't know. But maybe I still have romantic-like feelings for him. You know? But anyways, I hope none of my friends who know him will read this and mention it to him. Because I wouldn't like for that to happen.