This is for Lesley
yes Lesley people are getting mad at you because they are realizing that your conceded, don't care for other people's feelings, when someone needs you your no where to be found. People help you get up when you fall they help you stand tall with your head high in the air but if someone falls you walk by like there not even there. you think that you have sooo many problems but you created those problems. You say that your having problems right now so they ask what's going on and you say don't worry about it's not a big deal. But then you go a create drama and cry about how your life is so bad. get over your self. So what if your mom doesn't give you 20 dollars to go to the mall. Maybe she would if you gave her change when she asks you to. You borrow money from people and don't pay them back. They ask for a few dollars and you say no you want to get something later. how christen is that?? When someone needs the shirt off your back give it to them for one day you might need there's. that has no meaning to you dose it???? you think about how something is going to help you and that's it. When we were at Kewisk and the kids from Nyack were giving away another tee-shirt. they were looking for stupid human tricks. I can stick my thong to my noise so i raise my hand. You ask me what i can do an I tell you. You say that it's not good enough that they will never pick me every girl can do it and i should just put my hand down. WTF! just 20 min's ago Kristen and i were in the lounge trying to get you to go up on stage and do something. I was there when you need someone there to comfort you. I'm there to lessen when you need to talk. but if i need to say something you turn the other way. how dose that work?? And when my mom was in the hospital and i was there with her you called my phone and asked where i was. I told you i was with my mom. You give me an attitude, saying that i needed to be at church for the musical. yeah i said that i could do it but that was before my mom got really sick. I'm sorry i wanted to be near her and that didn't work for you. how would you feel if your mom was in that position?? and when you and Jackie left me at the mall? i had no way to get home and you left with Jackie not knowing how i was getting home and if i got home. You though about your self to make sure that you got home okay and safely. What kind of friend dose that??? if i was you i would have stayed to make sure you weren't alone. and it's not like it was the Echelon mall it was the Morestown mall that's far like 25 30 mils not around the corner. That just shows that you aren't a good friend. I try my hardest to make sure that my friends stand tall and strong that if i can help them i do the best i can. I don't leave them i don't walk past when there in trouble. I get up by my self and hold my head high. i know that Barbara think that I'm a slut. Barbara has even voiced it. Every time I'm with a guy like were hanging out or something you give me such a look of shame. Like why am i friends with a girl like that. And i told you that i was messed up in the past and you now use that against me. you say that you don't really have friends like me.... what is that suppose to mean?? If i ask you what do you think of this skirt or shirt or something you'll turn it into something about you. Like yeah i think it's cute i wouldn't look good in it though. well guess what i wasn't asking about you I was asking about someone else. you laugh at me and my insecurity. you know I cant spell and I'm not good at math so you correct me every chance you get. you give me attitude when you have no place doing so. At Kewsick after service I was a little ticked off so were in the gym and you don't say anything to me and you and Jackie go in a corner and say crap about me. so back in the room I am lying down and Kristen had gotten back from wawa and you Jackie and Brennah walk in to get your stuff. Jackie asks me if I want to come with you guys and you chime in and say very sarcastically of chouse she doesn't want to come. what gave you the right to say anything. after service you knew that I was mad you should have come and talked to me instead of talking about me and giving me attitude. Lesley you don't understand how much you hurt me when you do stuff like that. like not caring and expect stuff but don't give it are never there when I need you. I get that enough at home with everyone else problems and I thought that I could come to you always and you would always be there but you aren't and that really hurts. I really and honesty don't thing that you get that you hurt me and I don't think you care either. as long as Lesley is okay. every thing else is okay. I guess that's the way it works huh?