Overwhelmed.
I wrote a facebook note about why I'm unhappy at school.
"I'm remembering why I hate college. Oh right. College is like a prison or a mental institution, and people who apparently have more power that I do can observe me and grade me as a person. My life is at their whim. I thought I would grow intellectually but I haven't. College seems to be more about taking tests, and handing in papers on certain dates, and meeting deadlines. I have honestly learned more from reading for pleasure about the things I'm interested in than writing half-assed papers about the things I'm not. If this is an education, then I can get it with a fucking library card."
And now I feel this way even more strongly because on Wednesday, I have a midterm for Environmental History, and on Thursday, I need to hand in an eight-to-ten page paper for Imperial Russia. This is not the way I learn; imposing tests and papers on me just causes resentment towards the subject and the professor. I'd like to drop out of school, but my parents would be extremely disappointed, so I figure I should just keep trucking until I eventually graduate. I'm fine with barely coasting by. All I really want to do with my life is read, write, and maybe paint. I don't see how I need a degree to do any of these, especially since I'm engaged to a genius who will graduate.
I don't belong here. I don't even like most of the kids I've met anyway. I'm VERY unimpressed by college and my fellow students because the vast majority of us can hardly construct a proper sentence, or carry on any sort of intelligent discussion.
NEVER underestimate the stupidity of people, life, and academia.
"I'm remembering why I hate college. Oh right. College is like a prison or a mental institution, and people who apparently have more power that I do can observe me and grade me as a person. My life is at their whim. I thought I would grow intellectually but I haven't. College seems to be more about taking tests, and handing in papers on certain dates, and meeting deadlines. I have honestly learned more from reading for pleasure about the things I'm interested in than writing half-assed papers about the things I'm not. If this is an education, then I can get it with a fucking library card."
And now I feel this way even more strongly because on Wednesday, I have a midterm for Environmental History, and on Thursday, I need to hand in an eight-to-ten page paper for Imperial Russia. This is not the way I learn; imposing tests and papers on me just causes resentment towards the subject and the professor. I'd like to drop out of school, but my parents would be extremely disappointed, so I figure I should just keep trucking until I eventually graduate. I'm fine with barely coasting by. All I really want to do with my life is read, write, and maybe paint. I don't see how I need a degree to do any of these, especially since I'm engaged to a genius who will graduate.
I don't belong here. I don't even like most of the kids I've met anyway. I'm VERY unimpressed by college and my fellow students because the vast majority of us can hardly construct a proper sentence, or carry on any sort of intelligent discussion.
NEVER underestimate the stupidity of people, life, and academia.