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haha so true...
ok i guess i'll update to keep my fans happy...
hmm. things are better. i was feeling...somewhat depressed for awhile but i think that was just me moping around feeling sorry for myself...i hope. anyways i was rejecting God AGAIN and trying to do things my way and whatnot and like going back and forth between God and the world. then i realized how stupid i was acting and that i dont want to be like that and God doesnt want me to be like that. so now im just trying to get back on track and leave the world behind..
the thing is, i dont know why the heck i keep rejecting Him and trying to control my life (or Gods life since i gave it to Him) cuz i'm not happy or joyful when i'm doing that and i end up feeling like an idiot. i wonder why God hasnt given up on me yet. i mean i know He still loves me, but after all the times ive just blown Him off its amazing how He still wants me.
so last night we sang a song that really hit home:
Spirit come
To this darkened heart of mine
Spirit come
Crucify
Spirit come
Live in me that I might die
Spirit come
Crucify
Oh I've been crucified to sin
So why do I go back again
To the things that put me far
From Your throne
Oh come and kill that part of me
That won't lay down upon the tree
So Spirit come
Crucify
i hope thats how it goes...i kinda forgot
wow the chorus is exactly how i was feeling. its awesome how God works.
i just heard the saddest story on Oprah. this lady was on her way home with a friend and she had her two kids with her. her kids were like 2 and 3 or something and they werent in a car seat. the mom decided to get on the floorboard off the car so she could buckle both her kids in the seat. well while she was getting them buckled, they crashed, and all of them were thrown from the car. the boy lived (the older one) but the baby girl died the next day or two days later or something. it was so sad! i cried.....
well anyways here's another song that i feel like sharing. it is very true:
You tried so hard to be someone
That you forgot who you are
You tried to fill some emptiness
That all you had spilled over
Now everything's so far away
That you don't know where you are
But all that you wanted
And all that you have don't seem so much
For you to hold on to
For you to hold on to
For you to belong to
When it's hard to be yourself
It's not to be someone else
Still everything's so far away
That you forgot who you are
so back to me. ha jk. well not really but yeah..
so i was informed that i cant exempt any of my finals because of unexused absences. actually they are tardies but the teacher counts me absent and i never go to the office to verify my presence in the class.........................plbbbbbbbbbbb oh well its only health and its all multiple choice so it'll be easy.
i'm hungry. i just had a chicken salad sandwich that my mother made me. it was delish. haha my mother says that.
I CANT WAIT FOR OCEANS 12!! if you want to come, we're going at 10:30 tomorrow night. except i dont know where so that might be a problem. oh and soph: you are buying my supper since i bought you a ticket to the play. :) thanks buddy.
aight i suppose that's enough rambling for the day. this is insanely long, but i expect everyone to read each and every word cuz i'm that important.
[long live remington] -i almost busted out laughing this morning in chapel when i looked at him while we were singing lol
haha so true...
ok i guess i'll update to keep my fans happy...
hmm. things are better. i was feeling...somewhat depressed for awhile but i think that was just me moping around feeling sorry for myself...i hope. anyways i was rejecting God AGAIN and trying to do things my way and whatnot and like going back and forth between God and the world. then i realized how stupid i was acting and that i dont want to be like that and God doesnt want me to be like that. so now im just trying to get back on track and leave the world behind..
the thing is, i dont know why the heck i keep rejecting Him and trying to control my life (or Gods life since i gave it to Him) cuz i'm not happy or joyful when i'm doing that and i end up feeling like an idiot. i wonder why God hasnt given up on me yet. i mean i know He still loves me, but after all the times ive just blown Him off its amazing how He still wants me.
so last night we sang a song that really hit home:
Spirit come
To this darkened heart of mine
Spirit come
Crucify
Spirit come
Live in me that I might die
Spirit come
Crucify
Oh I've been crucified to sin
So why do I go back again
To the things that put me far
From Your throne
Oh come and kill that part of me
That won't lay down upon the tree
So Spirit come
Crucify
i hope thats how it goes...i kinda forgot
wow the chorus is exactly how i was feeling. its awesome how God works.
i just heard the saddest story on Oprah. this lady was on her way home with a friend and she had her two kids with her. her kids were like 2 and 3 or something and they werent in a car seat. the mom decided to get on the floorboard off the car so she could buckle both her kids in the seat. well while she was getting them buckled, they crashed, and all of them were thrown from the car. the boy lived (the older one) but the baby girl died the next day or two days later or something. it was so sad! i cried.....
well anyways here's another song that i feel like sharing. it is very true:
You tried so hard to be someone
That you forgot who you are
You tried to fill some emptiness
That all you had spilled over
Now everything's so far away
That you don't know where you are
But all that you wanted
And all that you have don't seem so much
For you to hold on to
For you to hold on to
For you to belong to
When it's hard to be yourself
It's not to be someone else
Still everything's so far away
That you forgot who you are
so back to me. ha jk. well not really but yeah..
so i was informed that i cant exempt any of my finals because of unexused absences. actually they are tardies but the teacher counts me absent and i never go to the office to verify my presence in the class.........................plbbbbbbbbbbb oh well its only health and its all multiple choice so it'll be easy.
i'm hungry. i just had a chicken salad sandwich that my mother made me. it was delish. haha my mother says that.
I CANT WAIT FOR OCEANS 12!! if you want to come, we're going at 10:30 tomorrow night. except i dont know where so that might be a problem. oh and soph: you are buying my supper since i bought you a ticket to the play. :) thanks buddy.
aight i suppose that's enough rambling for the day. this is insanely long, but i expect everyone to read each and every word cuz i'm that important.
[long live remington] -i almost busted out laughing this morning in chapel when i looked at him while we were singing lol