Life with the Band
I don't think I can truly tell you how miserable I am right now. Life is general is just sucking. I KNOW I should be grateful, I have a roof over my head, money in the bank and a job that I can tolerate. And up until last week things were going relatively well.
Last week I got food stuck in my band, and had to make the 1.5 hour drive to the doctor's office to have some fluid removed from the band and let it everything pass. I of course got the lecture on that fact that I gained a little weight, but I swear it's from going to the gym and lifting weight, but whatever. Ever since then the band hasn't felt right. I can't get comfortable to the point of I can't sleep. I have an appointment with the doctor in a week so I'm just gonna put it all out on the table and see what he says. More then likely it's going to be suck it up buttercup.
Work is work...it's not too bad now that I have moved offices and is way closer to home and not having my boss breathing down my throat every second helps too. Of course there are trade offs, I have way more work and am floating between 3 departments.
School... well after I figured out they totally lied about the length of time it would take me and the amount of money it would cost me, I'm stuck in the program that I know will help me move up the food chain, but at the same time is going to cost me almost double what they said. The class that I'm in now I hate. It's just seems like I'm doing the same thing over and over again and I've got too much money invested in it now to walk away.
Personal...there is no personal life. I work, go to the gym and do school work. Which wouldn't be a bad thing except for the fact that I'm 36 and I want to settle down and have a family. Not like that's going to happen when I never have time to go out and find a guy to settle down with. 3 months ago I slept with B, just to take the edge off. It's sad that that's all we will ever be. I could never settle down with him, he's just someone to hook up with every once in a while. When did my life become booty calls that rarely happen because our schedules never match up or he's busy with friends. Hell he's not even technically single.
When did I start settling?
Last week I got food stuck in my band, and had to make the 1.5 hour drive to the doctor's office to have some fluid removed from the band and let it everything pass. I of course got the lecture on that fact that I gained a little weight, but I swear it's from going to the gym and lifting weight, but whatever. Ever since then the band hasn't felt right. I can't get comfortable to the point of I can't sleep. I have an appointment with the doctor in a week so I'm just gonna put it all out on the table and see what he says. More then likely it's going to be suck it up buttercup.
Work is work...it's not too bad now that I have moved offices and is way closer to home and not having my boss breathing down my throat every second helps too. Of course there are trade offs, I have way more work and am floating between 3 departments.
School... well after I figured out they totally lied about the length of time it would take me and the amount of money it would cost me, I'm stuck in the program that I know will help me move up the food chain, but at the same time is going to cost me almost double what they said. The class that I'm in now I hate. It's just seems like I'm doing the same thing over and over again and I've got too much money invested in it now to walk away.
Personal...there is no personal life. I work, go to the gym and do school work. Which wouldn't be a bad thing except for the fact that I'm 36 and I want to settle down and have a family. Not like that's going to happen when I never have time to go out and find a guy to settle down with. 3 months ago I slept with B, just to take the edge off. It's sad that that's all we will ever be. I could never settle down with him, he's just someone to hook up with every once in a while. When did my life become booty calls that rarely happen because our schedules never match up or he's busy with friends. Hell he's not even technically single.
When did I start settling?