Vent. Anger. It's All Coming Out.
Well. Here it goes.. its gunna be one big BLURR.. but im gunna vent. and its gunna be long.
Well to start off. Last night i had friends over.. and they all kept everyone up all night and i havent slept for a day. and im bitchy. So excuse my language. here it goes. Alright. tonight i was SUPOSED to go to the movies with all my friends. and samantha was my ride.. i went to eat(mistake) and they left me. they fucking left early. im fucking pissed. its fucking retarded thet didnt have to leave 20 fucking minuetes early for a movie. DAMN! Alright. Enough of that before i go insane, Somemore.:)
Other things on my mind are my family. My family is driving my NUTS lately. and everythings getting on my nerves. my dad is annoying the shit outa me and wont leave me alone about anything or whatever i do. Im so fucing tired of being treated like a retard. Im not a fucking mental patient. To him i am. He thinks im too young for everything and he makes me feel like i have to impress everyone if i go to a fuckign restaurant and shit. i could careless.. its really annoying.. someone has to know how that feels.. and if not.. you dont want to. HEjust gets on me for the fuckign littlest things. and it sets me off. He yells at me for my clothes, my cell phone, my friends, my life. anything he can possibly screw up in my life he does it. He ruins my life i gues you could say. He cheated on my mom. He refuses to talk to his daughter when shes here. He doesnt like my personalitly becuase i dont like livin the " rich " life. Hes a fucking douchebag.
On the other hand. Me and steven Fight more then probably any friends do. and its really getting to me lately. sent me crying to my room. I dont usually do that. But i really liked him. and someone just had to open their fucking mouth about a certian thing, and he just lost all interest in me. I give up on boys. I honestly dont think ill ever love again.. you probably think im fucking crazy. but thats how i feel. I want to love again.. i just want someone to be there for me.. because obviously my friends arent... i have no one...
My life is getting too hectic and it needs to calm down, im tired of living on the edge not knowing when i could get kidnapped or taken... No one would know what its like unless you have lived in my shoes for a day. You would honestly feel the same. I am tired of this life. I want to start over. I cant handle things like this anymore. Its too much pressure.
Allie do this. Allie do that. Allie did something wrong. thats ALL you ever hear at my house. Im tired of hearing my name. and my parents always pick me for things and my brothers and sisters never Do SQUAT! They are all fucking lazy asses. I hate it. My sisters lazy and my brothers a pothead. I love my family :| Ha, if only i meant that. I cant remember the last time i told my parents i loved them. which is sad. i miss those days.. but my teenage years are nothing like my todler years.. and i dont like it.. they treat me differently from the restt of my siblings.. and i can never figure out why.. i know its becuase im the youngest, but being the youngest doesnt mean i have to do EVERYTHING. I, honestly, am tired of living in this house with these people.
I let out everything.
Enjoy. Comment if you want
Allie
Well to start off. Last night i had friends over.. and they all kept everyone up all night and i havent slept for a day. and im bitchy. So excuse my language. here it goes. Alright. tonight i was SUPOSED to go to the movies with all my friends. and samantha was my ride.. i went to eat(mistake) and they left me. they fucking left early. im fucking pissed. its fucking retarded thet didnt have to leave 20 fucking minuetes early for a movie. DAMN! Alright. Enough of that before i go insane, Somemore.:)
Other things on my mind are my family. My family is driving my NUTS lately. and everythings getting on my nerves. my dad is annoying the shit outa me and wont leave me alone about anything or whatever i do. Im so fucing tired of being treated like a retard. Im not a fucking mental patient. To him i am. He thinks im too young for everything and he makes me feel like i have to impress everyone if i go to a fuckign restaurant and shit. i could careless.. its really annoying.. someone has to know how that feels.. and if not.. you dont want to. HEjust gets on me for the fuckign littlest things. and it sets me off. He yells at me for my clothes, my cell phone, my friends, my life. anything he can possibly screw up in my life he does it. He ruins my life i gues you could say. He cheated on my mom. He refuses to talk to his daughter when shes here. He doesnt like my personalitly becuase i dont like livin the " rich " life. Hes a fucking douchebag.
On the other hand. Me and steven Fight more then probably any friends do. and its really getting to me lately. sent me crying to my room. I dont usually do that. But i really liked him. and someone just had to open their fucking mouth about a certian thing, and he just lost all interest in me. I give up on boys. I honestly dont think ill ever love again.. you probably think im fucking crazy. but thats how i feel. I want to love again.. i just want someone to be there for me.. because obviously my friends arent... i have no one...
My life is getting too hectic and it needs to calm down, im tired of living on the edge not knowing when i could get kidnapped or taken... No one would know what its like unless you have lived in my shoes for a day. You would honestly feel the same. I am tired of this life. I want to start over. I cant handle things like this anymore. Its too much pressure.
Allie do this. Allie do that. Allie did something wrong. thats ALL you ever hear at my house. Im tired of hearing my name. and my parents always pick me for things and my brothers and sisters never Do SQUAT! They are all fucking lazy asses. I hate it. My sisters lazy and my brothers a pothead. I love my family :| Ha, if only i meant that. I cant remember the last time i told my parents i loved them. which is sad. i miss those days.. but my teenage years are nothing like my todler years.. and i dont like it.. they treat me differently from the restt of my siblings.. and i can never figure out why.. i know its becuase im the youngest, but being the youngest doesnt mean i have to do EVERYTHING. I, honestly, am tired of living in this house with these people.
I let out everything.
Enjoy. Comment if you want
Allie