What is it that hurt?

[flying_xandi]

I think I just made it through one of the hardest weeks of my life. I can safely say that I hurt more now than I can remember hurting at any other point. I focus on the fact that I feel alive. I try to remain calm and tell myself that there is something worth loving in me. Most of the time it doesn't work. I suppose that's because I'm lying to myself again.

My heart hurts so much. I just want it to stop.