As things go.
I met a couple. Katie and Nate. Nate has bitchin' chops, and Katie is a hipster. The two of them have adopted me as a friend. They want me to move into an apartment with them. It would cut my astronomical bills in half if I did. I wouldn't mind that at all. Katie is one of those people who instantly cares about me. Nate says I remind him of his best friend. It's really comforting to meet two people who just... Want me around. It's not like it's rare or anything, don't get me wrong, but people I get along with really well? Doesn't happen much lately.
There's Amanda. Amanda and I have been hanging out lately. She works at the Starbucks on Eubank and Central, and I go there most days to fill out applications and read. She's... I'm never going to figure her out.
Sarah Wood has been kind of blocked off in my mind. She pulled some weird shit, and now I don't feel so great about being around her. She keeps calling me her best friend, and... I don't think of her as my best friend. That is a lot of responsibility to take on, and Sarah and I just aren't on that level. I'm extremely choosey about who I let inside my head or my heart, and I'm just not going there with her. She... Makes me feel awkward.
I feel strangely fine today. It's been an uphill battle to say the least. I've been so closed off to everyone lately. They don't know it, but it's true. I just don't let anyone in. But in the last few days, I've been letting myself feel again. It's hard to embrace change when it happens so abruptly, but I've let go of a lot of hurt and animosity. I'm not by any means over it, but I'm getting better every day.
I wrote a song the other night. Roses and Orchids. Most of the time when I write a song and finish it, I feel better. Also, I needed to vent. I need to be productive to feel okay most of the time.
I miss Michigan. I like it here though. There are a billion things to do now that I've explored the city. I'm looking forward to my bros coming down here this summer.
There's Amanda. Amanda and I have been hanging out lately. She works at the Starbucks on Eubank and Central, and I go there most days to fill out applications and read. She's... I'm never going to figure her out.
Sarah Wood has been kind of blocked off in my mind. She pulled some weird shit, and now I don't feel so great about being around her. She keeps calling me her best friend, and... I don't think of her as my best friend. That is a lot of responsibility to take on, and Sarah and I just aren't on that level. I'm extremely choosey about who I let inside my head or my heart, and I'm just not going there with her. She... Makes me feel awkward.
I feel strangely fine today. It's been an uphill battle to say the least. I've been so closed off to everyone lately. They don't know it, but it's true. I just don't let anyone in. But in the last few days, I've been letting myself feel again. It's hard to embrace change when it happens so abruptly, but I've let go of a lot of hurt and animosity. I'm not by any means over it, but I'm getting better every day.
I wrote a song the other night. Roses and Orchids. Most of the time when I write a song and finish it, I feel better. Also, I needed to vent. I need to be productive to feel okay most of the time.
I miss Michigan. I like it here though. There are a billion things to do now that I've explored the city. I'm looking forward to my bros coming down here this summer.