Hello New Year!!! I brought boxes to remember last year by!
everyone's fast asleep now. after crashing two parties, watching those fireworks explode, praying for a better year, eating (not so to my heart's content... i am hunger..), random road pictorials, and uhhh...i-think-what-i-did-was-dance-but-i-took-pictures-instead-because-i-can't-dance moment, i finally got the room silent.. in a way, i have it all to myself. this is the start of my new year! how nice.
why am i still awake even though i spent all day with my family doing whatever they did as well?? i promised to help a friend with her thesis. see, i keep my promises. my end of the rope.~~ i have to transcribe 13mb of talk. i honestly thought it would be around ten-fifteen minutes but, whoa. i have fifty-four minutes to work with here!!! but i plan on finishing it as soon as i can. i'm trying to do half of it before i go to sleep. but seeing as i need certain forms of distraction.. i went on ahead and got the next three episodes of the second season of junjou romantica. go egoist! plus, this blogging thing.
well, i may have left some things still half-buried in the mud for some reason. i need to fix them. so i need to talk to certain people (i have problems with a number of people, you know who you people are~~) about them. closures, setting things straight, various explanations i haven't said. though i managed to write what i had in mind for a person yesterday. while she said she wanted to throw up whatever it was she ate while reading it, she still thanked me. she needed a friend that would stab her where she could see i happening. unlike most of us who would sugar-coat words we say to dear friends (i've known her since we were 4), i don't do that (see past entry). blunt. but true.
those other people? i don't know. i severed a future with one because he struck out three times and he didn't even know it. BUT I GAVE SUBTLE HINTS!! guys should watch episode 16 of Ouran... then there's that other person, i severed because of fear and trauma; also, i wasn't sure. eww.. *male* issues.
i won't mention the third group of people. it has been my baggage since and i hate repeating them. they become unwanted mantras.
part of me really, really is asking for someone to listen but the other part of me still thinks doing such an act would be a bother to that person. yes, a remembrance as to why i avoid physical contact with anyone. super EMF. BUT.. my once impenatrable mask is now cracked. and i am still debating on whether or not i would reinforce the exposed weakness.
so here's to the unknown! the future we write ourselves! this time, i think i can accept change. but will take them baby-steps. don't rush.
why am i still awake even though i spent all day with my family doing whatever they did as well?? i promised to help a friend with her thesis. see, i keep my promises. my end of the rope.~~ i have to transcribe 13mb of talk. i honestly thought it would be around ten-fifteen minutes but, whoa. i have fifty-four minutes to work with here!!! but i plan on finishing it as soon as i can. i'm trying to do half of it before i go to sleep. but seeing as i need certain forms of distraction.. i went on ahead and got the next three episodes of the second season of junjou romantica. go egoist! plus, this blogging thing.
well, i may have left some things still half-buried in the mud for some reason. i need to fix them. so i need to talk to certain people (i have problems with a number of people, you know who you people are~~) about them. closures, setting things straight, various explanations i haven't said. though i managed to write what i had in mind for a person yesterday. while she said she wanted to throw up whatever it was she ate while reading it, she still thanked me. she needed a friend that would stab her where she could see i happening. unlike most of us who would sugar-coat words we say to dear friends (i've known her since we were 4), i don't do that (see past entry). blunt. but true.
those other people? i don't know. i severed a future with one because he struck out three times and he didn't even know it. BUT I GAVE SUBTLE HINTS!! guys should watch episode 16 of Ouran... then there's that other person, i severed because of fear and trauma; also, i wasn't sure. eww.. *male* issues.
i won't mention the third group of people. it has been my baggage since and i hate repeating them. they become unwanted mantras.
part of me really, really is asking for someone to listen but the other part of me still thinks doing such an act would be a bother to that person. yes, a remembrance as to why i avoid physical contact with anyone. super EMF. BUT.. my once impenatrable mask is now cracked. and i am still debating on whether or not i would reinforce the exposed weakness.
so here's to the unknown! the future we write ourselves! this time, i think i can accept change. but will take them baby-steps. don't rush.